arh wells. i just woke up. and im so proud of myself. i havent really eaten anything frm morning till now. and the good thing is tht i dont really feel hungry anyways. so i guess its okay not to eat till im really hungry. just pray tht i dont get a stupid gastric tonight or smth. hehhs. i hope i wont get it anyways. i pray.

okayokay. i woke up with a slight flu. i dunno whyy. and im sneezing like crazy ever since the time i woke up. lols. my stupid sensitive nose fault again. sighs. im so pissed with my nose. i dunno whyy i kept on sneezing. so annoying. eekks.

anyways. im quite lucky this time again. mummy cant fit into any of all the time slots mrs low have given to her for the stupid parent-teacher-conference. so im going back to school to collect my results tmr. without mummy this time. mummy might just have a talk with mrs low on the phone or smth. and i noe tht'll take like, a long long time. i wonder what they're gonna say this time. sighs again.

tomorrow will be a long day i guess. its our first game of the under18 tourni. and we're playing with the jansenite warriors. northland sec, the school who never fails to get into the finals in any tourni and prolly will be the champions or smth. and this time, its a BIG sigh. sighs.

i somehow feel scared, i dunno whyy, but its quite scary if you think of it. i noe its not a sure gone case. we might make it if we try hard enough. and if we believe. we have a strong defence. i noe joan, bubu, munyoke, jessica and even carolyn will not let us down. lets believe tht everything is gonna be alright. we'll do our best. yeaps.

anyhows, tomorrow's game is at Delta, 3pm. yeppers.

98.7fm is playing this love again. `this love has taken its toll on me,
she said goodbye too many times before, and her heart is breaking in front of me, i have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore. wahaha. i just simply love this song. i dunno whyy. hehhs. whee.

ohs. i bought a pillow today. lols. its so cute okay. i cant stand it. there's mickey, goofy and donald on it. wahaha. so chio. and so cute. lols. i was looking at all those cute cute things, and i noe brenda was a lil pissed with me. hahas. but i really cant stand it okay. i like all the cute cute things. ohs, i mean all the disney characters. mickey, minnie, donald, goofy, peterpan, tinklebell, mermaid, snow white and seven dwarfs, cinderella, pooh, piglet, eeyore, tigger and everything. i love them all. whee.

i dunno whyy im so in love with all those things. sighs. they remind me of my childhood days. hehhs. i remember tht i was totally in love with snoopy when i was young. some of you might have seen all those pictures ive taken with snoopy when i was young. and i remember tht there were a few taken with lots and lots of snoopies. hahas. i missed those times. i want to be a lil girlo again. wahaha.

alrights. im silly enough today. i shall just stop being silly here. ive to go and alter the hockey skirt. i cant fit into it. its so freaking small. everyone cant fit into their skirts. and we'll be feeling super uncomfortable when we're playing tmr. we all need to use safety pins. sighs.

okayokay. mummy is screaming at me again. i have to go off alr. takecare girlos. restwell. we'll do it yarhs.
loveyou all truckloads! ) )*winkwinks

`maybeiwasonlyfaintinlovecausefatefellshortthistime
[ imalroveryou* ]

whee. my room is spfucking messy. cause ive just removed all my preeteh things frm my table, cupboards and my wardrobe. everything's lying all over the floor. daddy is getting me a new big wardrobe you see. and there's alot of shifting and packing thts needed to be done. and thts whyy my room looks like a warehouse. sighs.

anyways, im preeteh excited. cause im gonna have a new bigg wardrobe. so happy. hehhs. its gonna have a huge full body length mirror. and many many small drawers. and tht means i can put all my clothes into it, instead of seperating them into three cupboards and having a difficult time trying to find my clothes. lols. i cant wait for it to arrive on wednesday. wahaha.

ive been sneezing like crazy, since i started packing my room till now. ive got a preeteh sensitive nose i guess. i can even sneeze with the slightest and smallest dust particles arnd. me and my super sensitive nose. so annoying. sighs again.

church today rocks(as usual). sermon was quite difficult to understand, but i guess i manage to scrap through and i can sort of relate some of it. but i was a lil sleepy during the sermon. maybe i didnt sleep well last night. maybe. im tired now too. i'll get a rest now, before i continue to pack my stuffs. yeaps.

`i slept but my heart was awake

whee. i love this songg.

maroon 5. this love.

i was so high i did not recognize
the fire burning in her eyes
the chaos that controlled my mind
whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
never to return again
but always in my heart

this love has taken its toll on me
she said Goodbye too many times before
and her heart is breaking in front of me
i have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

i tried my best to feed her appetite
keep her coming every night
so hard to keep her satisfied
kept playing love like it was just a game
pretending to feel the same
then turn around and leave again

this love has taken its toll on me
she said Goodbye too many times before
and her heart is breaking in front of me
i have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

i'll fix these broken things
repair your broken wings
and make sure everything's alright
my pressure on your hips
sinking my fingertips
into every inch of you
cause I know that's what you want me to do

) )*winkwinks

but she's so highh.
her mind is high above the air.
her mind is over the world.
her mind is just you.

whee.

aye. aye. today is prolly the happiest day of this term i guess. its the last day of term2 and the mids are long over. and its time for the hols again. happily. we dont have to face all those stupid annoying books tht made us go bonkers. we can just forget bout them for once. and play our lives away. whee.

went to cine and watched confession of a teenage drama queen. yeaps. it was quite a good show i guess. it was smth like a girl at the rock show. conquering the floor. lols. its really nice. and maybe cool. anyways. its quite a good show. go catch it yarh.

im gonna dye my hair again this hols. it doesnt seem tht its dyed anyway. so i shall dye it and make it more obvious. maybe i shld try, ehs, purple red, or maybe golden brown? mmhm. let me think bout it.

arh wells. i dunno whyy im so tired these days. im really really tired. i dunno whyy is it so, but i think im too easily tired these days. i get tired over the least tiring things. i feel so shagged after everything. i can even feel tired after watching the movie. and after i train, i'll get spfucking tiring. arghh.

eekks. im irritated and annoyed with myself.
i feel so silly. i dunno whyy.
whatever.

alrights. im stopping here. ive got trng tmr morning. ive gotto wake up early again. but im so tired. ehs, whyy am i whining in the first place. sighs.

yeaps. takecare. restwell.
sleeptight. colourfuldreams.
night nights. muah.

) )*winkwinks

arh wells. trng today was really tiring and a lil scary. lols mr bulb is so scary. i dont really enjoy the way he talks and the way he yells at all of us in the pitch. its so pressurizing and scary. but, thts mr bulb. its his personality. and no one can change it anyways.

okayokay. lets talk bout the more interesting things tht happened in class today. lols. it was so funny and hillarious, i tell you, if you'd seen all tht we've done, you'll prolly laugh till you get a ulcer in your tummy. its tht serious okay. hehh. guess what naughty things we did. its even worser then ystd. hee.

rightio. we(veena and i) started out playing sisscor paper stone. lols. i noe we're silly. but we were really spfucking bored okay. yeaps. and the rule of the game was like this. the winner will slap the loser once everytime the winner wins. hehh. and veena kept on winning at first. so annoying. and she was slapping me like crazy. and until i finally got to slap her. lols. and i decided not to play anymore. cause my luck was really bad. keeps on getting slapped by her. pffft.

ohs. i forgot to sayy tht i slapped her quite hard tht time. hahas. and she was kinda pissed. cause she didnt slapped me so hard. but she slapped me so many times. hehh. so i decided to give her a tight slap. lols. im not mean okay. i think she deserves it. hehh. and after i slapped her, i decided not to continue the game. but veena wanted to slap me back, so she was tugging me to continue the game.

and as you noe, veena, tht skinny famous amos woman, dont have much strength. and when she tugged me, i started pulling back. and she fell to the ground. it was so funny. the way she fell. everyone was laughing at her like crazy. especially me. lols.

and so the 'war' began. we started whacking each other like nobody's business. and yar. i forgot to mention tht mr tan was in class. he was laughing at everything also. hahas. the cat-fight started out with the two lil kittens(venna and me) but ended up with samantha and zhiyi on my side. mmhm. so its three against one. hee.

we started to whack each other, and it got worst. in the end, we were trying to pull out veena's rubberband on her hair and even her shorts. and we got so violent, and she fucking kicked me. lols. i was really spfucking pissed at tht time. so i started to whack her boobs and kick her ass. i noe its a lil mean, but who cares. she deserved tht. who ask her to kick me in the first place.

and we continued fighting until we really were so violent, we had to stop. cause if we continued, i think all of us would have been injured by now. and tht crazyy mr tan lin how was watching everything, and laughing like as if its a comedy. crap. veena cried a lil after everything. and we apologised to each other, and we're alr okay now.

yeaps. thts all abt the interesting thing in class. it was really so funny and hillarious. and to think back abt it, i think i was quite mean actually. wells. maybe i got too wild and high at tht point of time. but i think it was really funn anyways. yeppers.

i was wild and high. whee.

rightio. thts bout it larh. im really tired and i need a rest. its the last day of school tmr. and im going to dye my hair during the hols again. cause my hair doesnt really shows tht its dyed anyways. yeaps.

so yeahh. takecare toodles.
loveyou all lots. muah.

) )*winkwinks

arh wells. school is really boring these days. i can't stand going to school anymore. i want to pon school tmr. but ive got hockey trng. and i dont think i shld pon the last few trngs before my first tournament starts next week. my first game is on next tuesday. so tht means i can't pon school tmr. everyone is pon-ing school everyday. and i also want to pon school. i want. i want!

sighs. i can't pon school tmr. so irritating. im so jealous. everyone is pon-ing school, but poor me have to go to school. cause ive got my trng. and trng is at NTU, 2-4pm anyways. yeaps. i seriously dont like the NTU hockey pitch. its looks so big. and it feels so huge. i hate running in it. i feel so small there. so small.

ive told mummy and daddy my results alr. they didnt scold me or anything. anyways, they've alr promised tht they wont scold me this time. okay. i tried all tht i can in the limited time. and this is the best i can get. alright. maybe i was just lucky. i dunno. but im alr contented with my results this time. at least ive shown improvments. yeaps.

ive got to stop here alr. daddy needs the comp soon. he need to de-bugg. cause he suspected tht there are virus bugs in the comp. whee. so interesting right. lols.

yeppers. my contacts lens are falling out soon. i better go and take them out. yeap. takecare girlos. loveyou. muah.

) )*winkwinks

heyy. this is going to be a short post. cause im really really tired. i slept from seven till ten. and im still tired. i seriously wonder whyy im so tired these days. perhaps i didnt have enough sleep for the past few months. so im sleeping like crazyy these days. i hate being so tired. its like im spending my life sleeping away. so meaningless.

school is extremely boring(as usual). nothing much to do except to crap around and catching some sleep in between periods. school is almost like a childcare centre. we play and the teachers just take care of us. lols. okay. maybe better then tht. sometimes, the teachers are not even in class. and i guess thts prolly the best and the noisest times. yeaps.

i dont feel as if im attending school. okay. maybe so, but i feel more like im attending a rock school. lols. so funny. if school was like this everyday, i think i wont mind going to school everyday. perhaps it'll get a lil bored at times, but its still better then sitting and trying to pay attention in class, while smsing under the table. or maybe trying to copy some homework. but hoping not to be seen. lols.

but i feel like pon-ing school still, although its nicer now, i feel like im just wasting my time. shld as well just stay at home and sleep. mmhm. whyy am i talking abt sleeping again? i guess im really tired.

i feel bad. we pon-ed trng today. cause we were really really tired. but i have my tournament is starting and my first game is on 1 june. and i pon-ed trng today. i feel so bad. but i was really tired today. and i mean really tired. i was sleeping thru almost all the periods and i guess the whole day in school. im beat.

alright. thts bout it. i think im gonna get somemore rest. yeaps.
takecare. loveyou girlos truckloads. muah.

) )*winkwinks

heyoo. just sent veena off. tht silly girl. she forgot to bring her keys when she left for school in the morning. how forgetful can this girl get. lols. so she followed us to town and came to my hse and left at 10pm. thts quite unlikely for veena right. but i noe tht she enjoyed my sibling's company. they were busy crapping. while i was trying to catch some sleep. im really tired these days. tired.

okay. back to what we did in town. as usual. the chicken rice and famous amos woman, veena. bought famous amos cookies. lols. veena is totally spfucking crazyy over famous amos cookies. dont ask me whyy. ask her. cause she havent really given me an exact answer anyways. and she spent all her money on tht. lols. its so funny. she eats so much of tht, but she still doesnt puts on any weight. still so skinny and boney. so wierd right. yeap.

stupid adeline, brenda, carolyn and grace kept tempting me to eat at pasta mania. gosh. golly. i really couldnt resist eating tht i guess. they're so irrtating. eekks. and i dunno what i was doing. i actually ate. oh no. i actually ate. i feel so guilty now. but ive alr eaten. arghh. its all their fault. start to tempt me with all tht. so mean. annoying.

yeppers. got back all my results alr. i think i did farely okay this time. at least better then the previous exam. i failed two subjects anyways. and its maths and dnt(as expected). so it wasnt much of a shock or smth. i passed the rest and im really happy and contented. thought i didnt do well. but i think tht its alr good tht i can at least pass. lols. but seriously, i tyco my way thru most of the papes anyways. i can just count myself as lucky. really lucky.

sometimes i just feel tht im just such a lucky girl. i dunno whyy. but i always seem to have so much luck with me. and i can even do quite alright as compared to those who studied and mugg so hard for the exams. actually i feel bad too. sometimes i think tht i dont deserved the marks. but i think the lucky stars wont be with me always. i just hope tht everyone gets the marks they deserved. yeppers.

im relieved cause ive got all my results back alr. hope tht everyone who havent got back all their results will reach their expectations and get what they deserved. alrighto? i noe you girls will do okay. rightio.

thts bout it. im really tired.
nights. muah.

) )*winkwinks

went to church in the morning. and church rocks(as usual). ive always enjoyed going to church. i dont noe whyy. but it just feels great. its like renewing yourself everytime you go to church again. i think i feel God's presence the most when im in church. i think tht going to church is really smth great. it just feels good. nice.

rightio. i gtg now alr. daddy need to use the comp urgently. so i have to go off now. yeppers. thts bout it. good luck to all getting their results tmr. hope all of you do well. yeap.

takcare+

) )*winkwinks

heya. just reached home not long ago. dont ask me where i went and everything. i was just feeling sad and i wanted to be at somewhere quiet. and i didnt do anything stupid larh. for heavens sake. do you think i will anyway. ailin. brenda. carolyn(the abc of my life) lols. dont worry larh. im still here in one piece. nothing happened to me. and i seriouly nve do anything. and im really okay. believe.

i somehow feel hungry. eekks. i didnt eat anything frm lunch till now. and i didnt faint luckily. and i dont feel hungry. i feel good anyway. cause my tummy is flat now. so nice. at least i dont feel bloated. i feel light though i noe tht im heavy. fine. i noe tht im not fat or what. but i just feel tht i need to be skinnier. and so my dieting still continues. yeap.

went for trng but didnt really train today. cause i woke up late and plus i puked twice in the morning. so i didnt train. went for trng more then an hour late. thought tht mr bulb will screw me or smth. but he didnt. luckily. so i went to do stickwork. hit the ball and stuffs. and i sort of like train charmaine. she looks so cute in the goalie pads. hahas. i think she's quite good for the start. though she's still a small lil girlo. i think she'll do well in the time to come. you go girlo.

rightio. im stopping here. got nothing much to blog bout today. all i want to say is tht. i was feeling a lil sad and maybe depressed just now. and im really okay now. so dont worry aye?

charissa is really okay. she's fine now. yeap.

thts bout it. mummy bought some new top. and i think i saw a pinkk one. im gonna go and look at them now. yeppers.

takcare. sleeptight. colourfuldreams. mwa.

) )*winkwinks

whee. im so happy. cause i noe tht my period is ending soon. and i noe tht. wahaha. okay. im getting a lil crazyy. but who cares. having a period sucks okay. its so irritating and uncomfortable. and it still causes me to have pimple breakouts, bad hair day and even mood swings. eekks. so annoying.

) )*moodswings

dont worry. im not pissed or anything now. im okay. and in fact, im quite happy. lols. i dont really understand whyy im so crazyy these days. and plus the fact tht im always so tired. its so wierd. and i say this again. its hard being a teenage girlo. its really hard.

town these days have become damn quiet and damn boring. towning doesnt seem to be as nice as before. i think it gets more and more boring with each passing day. i see the same trees, same roads, same buildings, same shops and even the same ppl. and its always the same ppl towning everyday. as usual. lols.

okayokay. i'll reveal a secret tmr. cause im too lazy to type now. lols. okay. is tht suppose to be an excuse of smth. wells. i hope it is. im really seriously very damn tired. and im beat. and there's still hockey trng tmr. and i seriously hope tht mr bulb will stop torturing us tmr. cause i dont want to do physical trng agn. my feet is alr a lil pain now. and everyone is suffering from muscles aches.

ohs. im waiting for the confessions of the teenage drama queen to be out. i heard tht its quite a good show. and i want to watch it. but it'll still take quite awhile to be out in the cinemas. arghh.

alrightt. this is the end for now.
takcare. colourful night. muah !

) )*winkwinks

im so tired now. ive got my stupid period this morning. dammit. its making me so tired. and i get so cheesed off so easily. and i always get damn irritated and annoyed over lil things. and i mood swings like crazyy. i can be so happy and the next moment, im pissed. i guess its hard being a teenage girl. its really hard. i hate growing up. eekks.

) )*moodswings

went for the lotr exibitions today. its preeteh boring. the only interesting thing was during the lecture we had bout movie making. the guy who gave us the lecture is so cute. ohmygosh. i think he's really cute. though he's like a lil older then us. i think he is reaching his early twenties. and plus i think he's married, cause he wears a ring on his fourth finger of his left hand. lols. okay. anyways, im just saying tht he's cute. i think most of you also agreed with me right. hahas. but he's a lil too old for us though. lols.

and everything after tht was really boring. we had nothing to do. plus we're not interested in the stupid lotr. its so boring. so we went to macs. and guess what i saw? at the water fountain outside macs, there were so many saint andrew junior sch lil boys playing with the water. lols. its damn funny. they were all drench and they look so cute. aww. tht reminded me of myself when i was young. lols. at least i dont play water in public though. hehh.

we had to rush back to school for hockey trng. and we thought tht we can miss the first part of trng. but who noes, my bulb was there checking all their files. as anicipated, he was really dissappointed in us. and he was also quite angry. he had a talk with us and after tht, we had physical trng. we had 15 minutes, 10 minutes and 5 minutes run. we had to run at our best speed in all the three timings and he recorded our timings. i ran the first 15 and 10 minutes run, but i missed the last 5 minutes run. cause of my cramps. and in total, i think ive ran abt close to 4km in my top speed. physical trng today is really a killer. and im damn shagged now. my mind is going blank. im really beat.

im so tired. but i hope i dont fall asleep now. cause i want to watch OC. though its downloadable, i dont want to waste the memory space in my comp. cause ive alr got lots of pics and everything. they're taking far too much space. i want to watch OC. whyy cant it start earlier? then i can have my sleep earlier.

ive been really tired these days. i noe its all due to my period. i can actually fall asleep at 10pm and wake up only the next morning. but i still feel tired. thts so unlike me. i think i'll be back to myself in a few days time.

tomorrow's the photo taking session for yearbook this year. i dont understand whyy must we take those pictures so early of the year. i dont feel like taking any class photos or whatever. i dunno whyy, but im dreading it.

anyways, i feel like doing some shoutouts now.

brenda//nuer*
my nuerr. im so proud of you today. you ran really well today. lols. you must continue to train hard okay. our tournament is coming. and no worries. i think ure registered alr. so you'll most prolly be playing in the shf under18 girls tournament. and if we're suppose to play in the under18, it means tht we've got 2 tournaments to play in theses two months. under18 and c'div. its gonna be really tiring. we must all be prepared for it okay. we must make it there someway, somehow. and i noe we can do it if we want to. okay? you've done well today. and hope tht you'll so well in the exams. and have fun. takecare. rest well. love my nuer to everything. mwa.

carolyn//ahma*
ahma arh. im really proud of you today too. i noe tht you've done well. you've done your best. im happy and proud of what you've achieved. its really good. and its great and encouraging to hear tht you've got your passion for hockey back alr. and you no longer dreads hockey anymore. im really happy. drop tht thought of quiting or whatever okay. we still got a long long way to go. and no worries also. ure registered alr. and tht means tht you have got two tournaments to play. shf under18 girls tournament and c'div. its a long way to go. our real trng just started. be strong okay. train hard. i noe you'll do it. so yeahh. thts bout it. takecare. loveyou many many truckloads. muah.

all the c'div hockey girlos*
heyy. trng today was really tiring. i noe tht. well done girlos. there has got tougher ones to come. its just the beginning. we've still got a long long way to go. it may seem to be a lil difficult, cause we've only got a month left, but we can do alot in a month. we can at least make a difference. we must train hard. and even if the outcome of the tourni is bad, at least we noe tht we've alr tried our best in the limited time. we dont want to regret anything okay. we must make it there someway. somehow. and we can only reach the top as a team. i seriously hope tht everyone will train really hard within this month. i noe we can make it if we push ourselves. if we want to, we'll make it. train hard. we'll do it girlos. rightio. takecare. rest well tonight. love you all truckloads. muah.

im craving for smth.
i want my magnolia milk.
milkmilk*

lols. thts bout it.
takecare. rest well. muah.

) )*winkwinks

eekks. the exams are over. so what. class is extremely boring. and i say again, boring. everyone is seperated into different clique. so irritating. all the indian girls will be together, at thts like one third of the class. then everyone will be seperated into their own lil cliques. and i'll be with my nuer, sasha, yiting, zhiyi and cheryl, maybe. yeap. and we talk bout all the same old things everyday. and i hate sitting in the register order. so stupid. i want to go back to my normal seating arrangements. i noe everyone wants to. mmhm. but maybe we're all too lazy to arrange the tables and chairs back. lols.

school today was preeteh stupid though. we started on our post exam activity. we had some funnyskin care talk. and a workshop on skincare. lols. i swear its damn funny. the talk was okay. preeteh boring though. they were telling us how pimples and acne developes. and its not like any of us got some severe acne problems or smth. so funny. but i think the speaker is really chioo okay. i think she's like damn chioo or smth. and i think her skin is so smooth. and the way she explains everything. i think she's really chioo and her skin is damn smooth. i just admire her. woah. just one word. beautiful.

okay. and now to the most interesting happenings of the day. the skincare workshop. lols. its so crappy. my stupid class went to sabo me when they were asked to vote for someone, for the woman to demostrate on how to take care and wash your skin properly. and tht someone was me. stupid class went to sabo me. so annoying. lols. and so i was left with no choice but to let the woman wash my face. and everyone was laughing went they saw the woman applying the cleanser and scrubing my face. i think it was so funny okay. i was trying not to laugh when the woman is trying to scrub my face. cause i dont think i want anything inside my eyes. and after she finished washing and applying cream, it was done. and i looked damn pale. cause of the cream. i think its funn. but annoying.

so much of all tht washing of face and everything. fine. tht was almost everything tht happened in school. there's some other things though. but i dont want to mention it here. yeap. but i think tht school and class is boring after the exams. we're just left to slack and do nothing. bleh.

went to town agn. yesyes. as usual. ailin went to thread her eyebrows. so hiao right. just cant stand her. she's just so vain. oohhs. i noe she's gonna kill me for saying this if she reads this. lols. ive bought shenevie her bday present alr. yeap. and ive got nothing much to say bout what happened in town. it shall just remain as a secret.

) )*winkwinks

dammit. training starts tomorrow. i almost forgot. haix. i think mr bulb will be damn disappointed in us. cause we didnt really fulfilled our promises of doing all our self trainings. i noe he's gonna be damn disapppointed when he check our files. maybe he'll just be damn angry, and make us run like crazyy again. or maybe he's gonna give up on us. i think its really our fault this time. cause we didnt make time to do all our decentralised trngs. when we made promises, they all seem so fulfilling, but we didnt do it. we've let him down again this time. its all our fault.

okay. just pray tht everything will be alrightt. yeppers.
thts bout it larh. gotta go alr.
im tired. takecare girlos. mwa.

whee ! the mids are finally over. finally okay. im really tired. i guess, ive put in enough effort this time. although some of the work are all done last minute, but ive alr tried my best alr. this is the best i can do in one and a half months time. just hope tht i will pass everything. okay. maybe not for dnt. cause thts quite a gone case anyway. but i hope and i pray tht i'll do preeteh okay for the rest. i think showing gradual improvments are alr enough. i dont expect for more. i'll try harder the next exams. yeap.

right now. its time to start playing again. im so off my examinations mood alr. i think im going crazy. cause im going to play till i go mad. hahas. i think theres smth i really want to do. i really want to scream. -screammsss* the mids are over!! wally wallo. charissaaa is a happy happy lil girlo. whee!

rightio. since the mids are over, i think its gonna be back to hockey trngs agn. the time has come. all of us really have to start trng very hard. cause our c'div is coming close. we have only one month odd to train. we have got so much more to go. we really seem to be way behind time alr, compared to the other teams. sulks. but i think we've still got to try our best. we'll all try our best. and whether we make it or not, its up to fate and maybe God to decide. but we must still give our best in this short month alrightt girlos?

daddy just reached home, from taiwan. i got to stop here alr. im gonna have a chat with daddy. lols. and i hope tht me wont faint when he hears of all those shopping mummy and i have done when he's away. i hope he doesnt mind though. hehh.

so yeahh. the mids are over.
all you girlos have a smashing great time okay?
playy all you want, all you can.

charissaaa loves you girlos truckloads. mwa.

) )*winkwinks

today's the second last paper. i say tht agn. second last paper. one more paper to go. not tht happy anyways. cause the last paper is the freaking chinese paper2. arghh. my chinese is really bad now. hahas. still rememberd the days when im in primary sch. granny will always 'force' me to study for chinese. cause she thinks tht its important for a chinese to be good in chinese(lols). okayokay. im a chineses, but tht doesnt mean tht my chinese rock or smth. cause i think my chinese is really bad. im fact, three quarter of my class is horrible in chinese. agree right girlos?

dnt paper was quite okay, surpisingly. but i think im gonna fail tht anyways. maybe not fail too badly, at least. im alr contented as long as i get 40 and above. cant expect too much of dnt from a silly girlo like me right. plus i think dnt is a total waste of time. cause i dont plan to be a technical or anything tht has got to do with dnt. i'll prolly be doing smth better. lols. alrightt. dnt is alr history. whee !

arh wells. went to town after the exam(as usual) and after tht, brenda went to cut her hair. my nuer went to cut her hair. when its alr so short. and now? she looks like a bung. nonono. i promised her tht i'll post this. she looks 'bu nan bu nu' (she looks neither like a girl nor a boyy) eekks. she so called 'forced' the hairdresser till her hair on top stands. whadaheckk. thts whyy i say she looks neither like a girl nor a boyy. she looks wierd. lols. check out brenda's hair in sch tmr okay. it rocks(ahem)!

nuerr!! your hair rockk. and dont forget tht your mummy(ahem) is rockk too. you rockk my socks girlo. lols.

so yeahh. thts bout it.
gonna go and study for the chinese paper alr.
takkaire toodles.
see you guys in town tmr. whee !

) )*winkwinks

heyy. just reached home from church. didnt stay for youth service today. cause i havent studied for the dnt paper yet. i dont understand all the properties of plastic, metals and wood. somemore still have to learn abt the tools, and the joining methods. whadaheckk. dnt is the most boring subj in the world and the most stupid things you can ever learn in your life. we're not gonna be technicals in the future, well, at least im not planning to be one. so whyy on earth do we have to learc tht? dont we at least have a choice? or maybe the rights?

arghh. and i cant for goodness sake draw the isometric and orthograpic drawings, whatever you call tht. and i think im gonna fail anyways. i dont really bother trying to study for tht either. im just worried tht if i'll fail too badly, it'll affect my overalls(as usual). like for last year? i got some freaking 29 marks for dnt overall. dammit. and my overall was kinda affected a lil by tht though. so, hope tht at least i wont fail so badly. i pray. i pray.

alrightt. back to the hottest topic on my blogg these few days. im seriously gonna forgive and forget all tht have happened okay. i wont bear grudges. i shall be kind and magnimous. but, nevertheless, i still want to find out the truth. i want to noe who did tht. i want the person to admit tht to me. thts all. after all, it wasnt my fault in the first place. i dont think i deserved all tht, but ive alr apologised. but tht doesnt mean tht i admitted tht i did all those. cause, i so didnt. i apologised for cursing and scolding tht person(whoever it is). thts it.

and to ailin, brenda, sasha, and all those who are cursing and scolding tht person for me, thks okay. charisa is fine now. afterall, she didnt do all those things and she's not guilty. and she'll not want to bear grudges. she'll forgive and forget bout all tht happened. please dont do anything okay. even charisa have alr forgave tht person, you al lshld just forget it and respect her decision. afterall, its charisa okay. not just a typical girl who gets angry and make a fuss out of everything. its charisa here. she dont do all tht. cause she's charisa.

yada. yada. im not trying to be bhb of what up there okay. its really from my heart. i want to forget it and get along with life. afterall, life is a lil too short to bear grudges and to live life with hatred. we shld be happy happy lil girlos who're nicee, cutee and adorable(lols).

rightio :)

so yeahh. thts bout it. hafta call brenda and ask her bout what to study for the dnt exams tmr. she's waiting. yeppers.

study hard girlos.
its gonna be all OVER in 2 days.
muah ! loveyou sweetts*

) )*winkwinks

i just came back from shopping. went shopping at raffles place, suntec and citylink with mummy. we bought so many things. nono. i mean, i bought so many things okay. im in such a good mood now. alright. lets name what ive bought today. i bought new sports bras, new sch shoes, new clothes, new ripcurl wallet, new hillsongs disc. hahas. her lastest album also. did i ever mention tht im a great fan of hillsong? yesyes. im a big big fan of her. i think her voice rocks, and the way she worships and praise is so cool. hahas.

okay okay. ive thought over it alr. i shall be nice and forgive tht person who screwed up all the tagboards. wait. tht doesnt mean tht i admit tht ive done all those things okay. i didnt do all those things. but i think tht its better to forgive and forget. cause God first forgave us. and i dont think its good tht i do tht. its not tht i want to be holy or whatever. but i think thts a better way to settle tht then to make a great fuss. i can do tht if i want to. cause im innocent. but, i dont think i'll do tht.

but i'll still find out the truth, and find out who did all tht. but i promise not to create a big mess abt all those. and thks to all those who helped to scold tht person for me. err, i want to say sorry for scolding tht person a fucking bitch. i think its in verge of my anger tht i said all tht. i take back my words. sorry :)

so yeahh. take care.
loveyou all lots lots.
) )*winkwinks

okay. im really damn pissed. who's tht fucking bitch who's using all tht annoymous names to tag on my tagboard, and even on others tagboard. fucking bitch. i dont even noe whats happening okay. and tht bitch is screwing up my tagboard and other's tagboard for no reason, tagging crap abt me. thts all pure crap. and for your imformation, charisa is a still virgin. she didnt fuck boys and she doesnt have aids like what you think. and she doesnt smells/stinks. she is a perfectly normal girl. and its none of your business, of whats happening to her life. and she is none of what is tagged on all the tagboards. and all those tags are so hilarious. haha. if you want to screwed up her tagboard, please use smth more realistic. use your puny brains okay. and if you have the guts to tag all tht, whyy dont you have the guts to tag with your own name? thts called being a coward. and i noe tht the 'someone' is the same person as 'sexaye.' you can chose to get alive and fuck off. or maybe if you want to continue, the game is on. lets see which side the world on. what-so-ever.

im really damn pissed.

oh my, oh my. oh no, oh no. today's science paper is another gone case. most of the questions are so indirect. and i dont understand so many question. and im a lil crazyy, plus i feel really sleepy during the paper. i think i pretteh well screwed up my mids alr. crap. anyways, tht's bout the end of many things, and the end of my life soon. sue me.

ohs well. tmr's literature paper. im quite confident for tht though. lols. cause we were given quite alot of hints for this literature paper. and if we do badly, or fail, we shld just screw ourselves. i mean for those who have got the literature hints and focus. and im really not allowed to give anyone the hints for the paper tmr. so please dont ask me for them okay? cause i dunno what to do if you ask me. lols. sorry okay.

rightio. im tired. coffee is not helping me anymore. stupid. no matter how much coffee or caffine i drink, i still feel like sleeping. arghh. thts really a bad thing. i think im somehow addicted to coffee. and im spending half of my assets on coffee. mmhm. tht sounds quite serious. lols.

okay okay. im gonna catch a nap now. im yawning away. bla bla blehx. and i think my contacts are falling out soon. better get going. maybe i'll blogg agn tonight. if i have the time to.

alrightt. muah !
) )*winkwinks

today is maths paper2. ive alr tried my best. but i noe tht ive screwed the paper up(as usual). yesyes. always screwing up my papers. ive screwed up 2 of my papers alr. maths and history. okayokay. i might be able to pass my history. but my maths is a total goner. gone case. im alr prepared to fail my maths alr. i noe tht ive alr failed anyway. it'll be a miracle if i ever pass. if i do badly for the damn mids this time, then it'll be the end of alot of things for me. and the end of my life. maybe not really the end, but it'll be the end of half of my life. tht'll be the end. the end.

arghh. the mids are not over yet. i shouldnt be so depressed yet. im not a sadist. yesyes. seriously, i noe tht im not one. but sometimes i just cant help thinking about what will happen if i do badly for the mids. i mean, after all, we've at least got to be prepared to what will happen. cause if we're prepapred, we will not feel so much of the pain when we fall. and we can get back faster. and after all, we understand ourselves the best and we noe where we stand. and tht shld mean tht we can somehow anticipate or maybe predict the future for ourselves.

or maybe i shld say this: our fate and destiny is in our hands. its just the way we mould our future. we're all given equal opportunities in our life. its just the way we cherish and treasure them. and give the best of what we have in them. but sometimes we cant blame it on anyone. not even our fate. cause we noe tht we caused all these mis-happenings in our life. and after all. everything tht happened is just our fault. yeahh. ours.

i think im rather crazyy these days. ive been blogging on philosophies and what-so-ever not. wait. im not trying to comfort myself here. cause i noe tht its my fault if i ever do badly for the mids. but i'll try my best. and this time, im not gonna fail my dnt. i really have to pass tht. cause tht stupid subj is pulling my average down. crap.

rightio. i blogged to de-stress actually. cause im really lost after i read the science text and after listening to carolyn explain about elements, atoms, electrons, protons, neutrons. oh no. i think i better stop here. if not i'll start talking bout diffusion and osomosis as well. and tht'll be irritating and annoying for you to read on. cause you've alr read tht a bunch of times, i supposed anyways. lols.

so yeahh. thts bout it. im saying this as usual. study hard. and rest well tonight. alrightt?

charissaaa loves you guys truckloads !
) )*winkwinks

sexaye. naughtyy. bitchyy. [ me* ]

**
i pick all my skirts to be a little too sexy
just like all of my thoughts they always get a bit naughty
when im out with my girls i always play a bit bitchy
cant change the way i am sexy naughty bitchy me

im the kind of girl that girls don't like
im the kind that boys fantasize
im the kind that your momma and your daddy were afraid you'd turn out to be like
i may seem unapproachable but that's only to the boys who don't have the
right a approach or ride that makes a girl like me wanna hop in and roll

people think its intimidating when a girl is cool with her sexuality
im a 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home and being innocent

**

my mouth never takes a holiday
i always shock with the things I say
i was always the kid in school who turned up to each class bout an hour late
and when it came to the guys i'd lay, i'd always pick the ones who wont
figure out that I am clearly a rebel to the idea of monogamy

People think it's intimidating when a girl is cool with her sexuality
im a 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home and being innocent

**

Sexyae. naughtyy. bitchyy. me *

people think its intimidating when a girl is cool with her sexuality
im a 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home and being innocent

**

i like all of my shorts to be a little too shortly
unlike all of my guys i like them tall with money
i love all of my nights to end a little bit nasty
cant change the way i am sexy naughty bitchy me

i pick my skirts to be sexy
just like my thoughts a bit naughty
when im out with my girls ..bitchy
cant change I am
sexyae. naughtyy. bitchyy. [ me* ]

today was the most-dreaded history paper. and its finally over. whee ! i guess we can all throw our books away, maybe burn them away. who cares? its alr over. and i might not even have to take history as my humanities subj next yr if i dont want to. and i prolly dont think so too. hahas. so thts bout the end for history. okay okay, the paper today was quite alright. but i think it was quite rush though. i finished the paper just in time. and my handwriting was total crap if you look at my scripts. cause i just vomit everything out on the paper and i scribbled my way thru. what-ever.

yesyes. maths tuition just ended. tmr is maths paper2. another gone case. i shall just try my best. but i'll prolly screw the paper tmr(as usual). maybe i shld just stop cursing myself as to how badly i'll do. thts even worst. okay okay. charisa is going to try her best. yesyes. she must. lols. enough of all these philosophis.

i need smth now.
i need c o f f e e !
) )*winkwinks

rightio.
sleep tight toddles. sugar dreams. dont mugg till too late alright. muah !

oh my gosh. i practically screwed up the maths paper just now. screw me. i dunno what i was doing. i didnt complete the paper(as usual). actually, many of them also didnt finish the damn paper. i think the time allocated was really a lil too short. its only 1 hr for some stupid and long paper. crap. ive alr flung my maths paper 1. paper 1 is alr so horrible. i think paper 2 is really a gone case. screw it. chinese paper 1 is okay. with the help of the dictionary, i guess i'll be able to pass my compo and letter writing. i hope so.

what-so-ever`

its the history papers tmr. im most prolly gonna screw it agn. nono. i cant afford to screw another subj up alr. i must pass ! yesyes. im gonna be a good girl and start mugging for history soon. i cant imagine writing all the crap for the sourse-based and strucrured questions. tht'll be horrible. i seriously dread this history exam. cause im afraid i'll screw it up. and by the way, the marks for this history mid yr exams will be taken in account for streaming next yr. i just remembered tht. me and my goldfish memory. wahaha.

yada yada. ailin gave me my belated birthday present today. guess what? she baked a big brownie for me. with pinkk icings and mnms(lols). ive taken a picture of it. i'll publish it after i upload it. rightio. its really very sweet of her. i feel so touched and honoured. hahas.

ailin`
muahaha!! thks a big big bunch for tht chocolate brownie. its really very sweet and thoughtful of you. ive nvr imagined ailin baking a cake for me, i mean a seriously edible cake(lols). okay okay. i feel really touched and honoured, though the brownie looks a lil screwed. but its frm you. yesyes. you. and im happy enough tht you made the effort to bake it for me. thks to victoria too, for cracking the eggs. there's no egg shell inside the brownie. its quite well done. another big thks to both of you. especially to ailin. charissaa loves you. muah !

thts bout it.
study hard people.

) )*winkwinks

heyy. the exams are starting tomorrow(for stc). wahaha. okay. everyone seem really stressed. only so few people are online(lols). and i dunno what im doing online. mm. maybe to de-stressed. alrightt. im blogging here to tell everyone this(especially to all in stc). its the mids tomorrow. wahaha. dont cry. dont mugg till the early mornings. dont be too stressed. dont think too much. cause tht will cause us to lose all our memory.

so. sleep well tonight. rest well. alright? you'll do it girlos.
charissaaa loves you. muah !

just woke up frm a long long sleep. i guess, im preeteh tired todayy. i even woke up late this morning, even though my alarm clock rang at seven. i practically slept till eight (i off the alarm and went back slping) lols. and as a result, i was late for science remedial. so so late. maybe not really damn late, but i was late. ahahas. i was twenty-five minutes, close to an hour late when i reached class. plus i still took a cab down. and if i didnt, i think i'll be even later. maybe, 50mins late. hehh.

okay. science remedial was fine. was craking jokes and disturbing mr tan (as usual, thts what i always do in his class). actually, for fact tht mr tan doesnt scolds us for everything tht we've done, tells us tht he's isnt a very bad preson. at least better then all the evil teachers arnd. its ever so funn disturing mr tan, cause he doesnt scolds you or anything. he might just tease you back sometimes. okay. im not trying to encourage all of you to disturb him here. nor am i trying to promote him, saying tht he's great. dont get the wrong idea.

after science remedial, we headed to townn (as usual). eh, beatrice, brenda, carolyn, chermin, gwen, chermin, and me. yesyes. seven of us went to townn. towwn was still damn quiet when we reached there. cause it was like, err, 10 plus when we reached there? yupp. so we went to burger king to eat. was suppose to eat there, but i didnt have the appitite to eat there. so i went to subway to get a sandwhich. hahas. havent been eating there for a long long time. and i finally did todayy. whee !

uhh, went to take neoprints after eating and all. i was still drinking my magnolia milk while walking to heeren. lols. i thinki i'll drink milk everyday from now. i want to have strong and healthy bones. wahaha. okay. maybe i can replace coffee with milk. hope its better then drinking coffee though. at least, there's no caffine in milk. yeppers. oh yar, backtrack. we went to take neos, and i too the neos with my milk. hahas. okay. my milk carton. dont get the wrong idea agn.

) )*winkswinkss*

yesyes. after tht, everyone left, to go home. cause they had tuition, or what-so-ever reasons. and only brenda, carolyn and i was left in townn. walked arnd heeren. it is totally quiet. cause the whole annex was like renovating. and most of the shops were still close. i bought a pair of butterfly earrings. omg. they're damn nicee. really really nicee i think. and i bought smth small for mummy. cause its mother's day tmr. lols. im not really tht filial or what. just thought tht its nice to get her smth (maybe she wont scold me so much in future) lols. just joking.

alrightt. the mids are officially starting on monday. and i havent really started fully on my revisions yet. oh my gosh. im left with only one day. which is tmr. i noe tht i havent really prepapred for it, but i dunno whyy im feeling so relax, so calm, and so confident for it. i think im going bonkers. im really crazyy. i havent felt the scaryness of the exams yet. but i think i will soon. whats life all abt anyways, studying and taking exams, studying and taking exams and still studying and taking exams. this doesnt seem to stop. what kind of fucked up lives are we living in? what has the world become of?

is getting good qualifications and getting into tops schools, top colleges, top unversities the most impt thing in life? i seriously dont think so. but i dunno whyy is the whole emphazing all this. its just make our (students) life go crazyt. just because of one thing. and tht is - e x a m i n a t i o n s ! im really suffering frm exams blue. i seriously cant stand the fact of taking exams. but thts the thing everyone have to go thru. there's no way out. no no no no no.

while everyone is out now, watching "sing to the dawn" (collaboration of rgs and ri), we're stuck at home mugging for the mids. haix. thts the biggest difference between stupid schs and smart schs. at least rgs and all have thru train. they dont reallt hafta worry like us to getting into top colleges, or getting a place in them. cause they're smart and they're thru train to college. thts a big big big difference.

oh no. i find myself extremly whiny todayy. i shall stop whining now, and stop here. i need to get back and start flirting with my books. lols. alrightt. thts bout it till now. takkairee ppl. study hard for the mids. give in all your best. you'll do it guys or girlos.

( (* lovelovelove
-hugss* muah !

andthereasonisyou*

happy birthday to JIARUI and MARYANNE, and ME !
wahahas. 7 may will always be our special day,
cause it'll forever be our birthday.
whee ! happy happy birthday girlos.

a big thank you to all and all of you, who made my day special.
thks for all of your greetings, presents, cards, letters and huggs.
really appreciate them alot.
they just made up my day :)

special thks to shenevie and leilani.
they gave me a pinkk zara top (dont be too happy yet),
with the word FLIRT on it. wahaha.
whadaheckk. im not a flirt for goodness sake.
arh wells, at least i think im not. hehh.

to everyone.
big thank you and hugss to all of you.
really liked all tht ive recieved.
thks a big bunch.
muah !

*( (

ive just finished making my history notes.
and before tht, i had maths tuition.
and im really tired now. im beat !
but i cant seem to be getting to sleep.

there's science remedial tmr.
at 830am.
screw mr tan for making it so early.
haix. i better be off now. gotta catch some sleep.

takkairee toddlers. study hard for the mids.
charissaaa loves you all truckloads.
muah ! *hugss*

[ yourockmyworld ]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELISSA !!

today is another of my junior's birthday.
my dearr hockey junior, FELISSA.
this entry is dedicated to herr.

wahaha. happy birthday to you girl.
let me sing a birthday song to you.
if not you'll be jealous, cause i sang felicia a birthday song.

here i go`
lalalax. (warm up first)

happy birthday to you.
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday to FELISSA.
happy birthday to you !

a shoutout to felissa:
whee ! hope tht today was a happy day for you.
i noe it was. got so many prezzies right. ahahas.
and you got so many of your favourite eeyores.
wahaha. charissaaa's so jealous. no larh. just joking.
anyhows, takkairee yarhs? loveyou truckloads.

okay. tmr is a special day.
its jia rui, maryanne, and my birthday.
lols. three of us are born on the same day.
we're the 7 may babies.
the strawberry puff girlos. whee !

rightio. thts bout it larh.
i gotta go alr. everyone is accusing me of not mugging.
so i shall go and mugg now.
(this whole entry was crap, though)

yeppers. takkaireee ppl.
loveyou all truckloads. mwa !

everytimeitrytoflyifallwithoutmywingsifeelsosmalliguessineedyoubaby.

im listening to perfect10, 98.7fm.
and the songg tht i lovee so much.

britney spears, in the zone: everytime.

notice me
take my hand
why are we
strangers when
our love is strong
why carry on without me?

everytime i try to fly
i fall without my wings
i feel so small
i guess i need you baby
and everytime i see you in my dreams
i see your face, it's haunting me
i guess i need you baby

i make believe
that you are here
it's the only way
i see clear
what have i done
you seem to move on easy

and everytime i try to fly
i fall without my wings
i feel so small
i guess i need you baby
and everytime i see you in my dreams
i see your face, you're haunting me
i guess i need you baby

i may have made it rain
please forgive me
my weakness caused you pain
and this song is my sorry

ohhhh

at night i pray
that soon your face
will fade away

and everytime i try to fly
i fall without my wings
i feel so small
i guess I need you baby
and everytime I see you in my dreams
i see your face, you're haunting me
i guess I need you baby

after all..
after all..

maths tuition just ended.
im so happy and relieved. wahaha.
i reallyy suck at maths.
seriously, and i think my tutor must have great patience.
to teach such a silly and loser girl in maths.

arh wells. tuition's overr.
so i shall just forget bout it and stop talking bout it.
i got lotsa assignments to complete.
im quite alot behind time. especially for chinese.
im equally bad in chinese as well as for maths.

i got a zhuo wen, gan xiang, zhao ju, and a zhou ji to do.
lols. i dun even noe if i got tht correct in the first place.
my han yu pin yin suck also.
basically, my maths and chinese suck.
i hafta admit tht. ahaha.

backk in sch today.
class was preetty boring (as usual).
i didnt have much mood to crap and joke arnd. thts whyy.
but everyone seem really relaxed, now tht the mids are so near.
i was feeling damn tired, but the whole class was so hyper.

thts totally unlike the normal okay.
i was actually the one who's hyper, while everyone's tired.
dunno what has gotten into all of us.
a change of attitude?
charisa becomes a good girl, while everyone becomes naughty girls. lols.

tht was practically crap.
and it shows how stressed charissaaa is. wahaha.
only thing interesting in sch today, was during english lessons.
we played taboo, and we had some true/false quiz.
it was quite funn, but everyone got bored after a period.

we continued playing taboo.
when everyone got tired, we switched to some wierd quiz.
but the quiz was really amazing kae.
err, there were interesting questions like:

whether elephants is the only mammles tht cant jump.
whether eagles mate in the air.
whether dolphins sleep with only an eye closed.
and the funniest one:
whether giraffes have a 21 inch tongue, which it used to clean its ears.
eekks! thts like so gross. hahas.

okay. thts bout all. but i guess some were really amazing,
if you ever think about them. right.

conclusion of the day: school was BORING.

countdown to the mids: 4 more days (2 sch days and the weekends).
its seems preetty fast. time flies.
we only had our english papers, while many other schs have alr started on their mids long ago. but we've got more time to mugg. hehh.

yada yada.
i shall stop here.
tata ! muah !

thereasonisyou *(

ohs wells.
im sickk today (sick kitty).
so i didnt attend sch. was slacking at home.
and slept till 10 in the morning.
ahahas. i noe all of you are jealous. *winkss*

but i was sick in exchange of waking up late okay.
dont be too sadd/happy there.
hehh. i got a slight migrane.
it wasnt too bad. but i just feel a lil giddy and dizzy here and there.

ive recieved so many msges and calls.
thks for all your concern.
charissaaa is alrightt.
dont worry okay. lols. you girls are damn cutee.
charissaaa loves you girls lots.

im waiting for 3 more days to come.
its a special dayy. wahaha.
okay. its for you to find out whats on 7 may.
whee !

so yeahh. thts bout it.
i'll be backk to sch tmr. dont miss me too much.
study hard tonightt. the night is young.
sasaa will be there if you need herr. wahaha.

takkairee girlos.
muah !

thisgirlwantstorockthenightwithyou*

whee !!
my new blogg.
so chioo rightt.
wahaha. relink me people.
muah !

today is my dearest junior's birthday.
happy happy birthday FELICIA !!
let me singg a bithday song to you.

*ahemm*
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday to you.
happy birthdayy to FELICIA.
happy birthday to you.
wwhheee!!

charissaaa loves you lots lots.
muah !

backk to my post.
today's a bad day.
for all those who noes what has happened.
smth bad and really sadd happened.
im not suppose to blogg it out here.
its kinda a lil too private to share it here. sry.

i was kinda taken backk by shock when i found out what happened.
and i felt really dissapointed.
i wondered what has happened to her.
luckily, we had mr tan to help us and give us advices.
if not, maybe not, things might get worst, and life might be lost.

i learnt one very important* thing heree.
just want to share it with everyone,
cause i think its smth good for all to noe.

when things go terribly wrong,
when ure at the verge of wanting to die,
think of the people arnd you.
think of your frends and parents,
think of all those who loves and care for you.

dont be selfish.
if you die, your suffering on earth might end,
but all you those who loves you will suffer in the end.
think bout the rest. dont only think for yourself.
others will suffer because you die.

and its not worth it to die for love.
if the person really loves you,
the person will not even hurt you.
what more want to cause you to die for him?
he wont really care if you really died.

if someone you love doesnt loves you.
then, whyy shld you be so foolish to think of dying?
just let it go. forget bout the fucking bastard.
he only knows how to hurt you.
he doesnt know to love you.

conclusion of the dayy:
relationships/love now doesnt seem promising as the seem to be though. learn to let things go. there's gotta be more to life.

just came backk frm church and shopping.
went to buy birthday presents, you see.
thts so nice of me kae.
so many people are born in may. wahaha.
amy. felicia. felissa. cheryl goh. cheryl yeo. jia rui. and ME!!

but of course im not so silly to buy a present for myself.
hahas. tht will be totally silly if i buy one for myself.
im gonna go totally broke okay.
such a sadd thing.

im chatting with jillian now.
she says tht she's gonna gimme a tortise for my birthday.
whadaheckk.

ohs wells.
lets stop talking bout buying presents.
they just make me feel stressed up.
-breathes in. breathes out-

lets talk bout church service today.
today was holy communion.
i think church today totally rock my socks off.
especially the youth service.
the speaker was really good, i shld say.
and the best thing is:

she's damn CUTEE and FUNNY !!
i lovee the ways she talks. damn cool okay.

she was telling us bout her life stories,
and all her teaching experiences.
in churchs, bible colleges and she mentioned acs (lols).

she was telling us how worried the principal was when she found out tht some of the acs students wants to be buddists (lols agn).

and she was so 'pro' to make them christians.
actually i dont really noe those details too well.
cause i was feeling really sleepy then.
and i was almost wanting to fall asleep.

but i didnt, and i cant.
cause i was sitting at the first row.
right in front of herr.
and it'll be really rude if i just fall asleep under her nose.

oh yarh. i havent mentioned the topic she shared today.
the topic is on: dlfferent world religions.
and today was about buddism.

her sharing was to teach us bout buddism,
and eventually how to evangelise effectively with buddists.
and i think it was really good.
i really admired the way she shared and the way she talked.
although she's a lil old, but i think she's really COOL.

okay. and i was so worried tht i'll not have enough time to revise,
tht i studied history in the bus ride home.
and was highlighting all over the book.
everyone was staring at me.
wondering if students now were sooo hardworking.
i think they have defined me as 'kiasu'

time is running short for me.
im rushing for time.
guessed its the same for everyone.
all doing last minute revision.

wahaha.

shesitsoutsitetheheavensgatecryingandaskgodtotakeallherhurtaway.
causeshestilllovesyou*

lets blogg bout ystd.
i actually did blogg kae.
but the post got deleated accidently.
arghh. so annoying.

ystd was the english papers.
guess everything was fine, maybe except for the composition.
arghh, i might have screwed it up.

i was supposed to write bout a special gift.
but halfway thru, i didnt noe how to continue.
so i switched to another topic.
i wrote the continous writing one.
smth to do with flooding the hse.

and i think i wrote off point.
i suddenly start writing bout chocolate fudge cake.
cause sasha gave me kindda breuno (whatever you spell it)
before the exams, and i finished them before the exams.
thts whyy i started writing bout chocolate, i guess.

sasha ! you spoilt my diet plan by giving me chocolates. wahaha.

back to the subj.
the rest of the papers were okay.
formal letting was not too bad.
just hope tht ive got the format right.

but the comprehension and summary was kinda easy.
i finished them within 40mins, and i slept throughout the extra time.
oops ! i think ive forgotten to check my paper.
arghh. heck larh. it wasnt too bad after all.

thts all bout the english papers ystd.
back to todayy.

just reached hme frm townn.
ahahas. went shopping at taka and wisma,
with brenda, felicia, felissa, han wei,
kinda gave up on cine and heeren.
all the same food, same shops and even people.
same e v e r y t h i n g.

guessed it was a good change.
didnt want to even step into cine/heeren today.
cause i sense tht smth bad might happen.
there're some ppl i dont wish to see.
and if i ever see him, my mood for the exams will be gone.

its so wierd, it always happens like this.
everytime a relationship or when smth bad happens,
it'll be somewhere close to the examinations.
and i'll lose my mood to study.
as a conclusion to tht: i do really badly for the exams.

and this time, im gonna prevent it.
i shall stay away frm town as for now.
and i'll be backk towning after the mids.
whheee !
but tht'll be quite longg.

back to the shopping part.
we were shopping arnd taka and wisma.
we went to fcuk, surfbabe, topshop, and many many others.
and we were looking at all the bimbo things.
err. not we, but me. ahahas.

i liked all the pinkk thingss.
they're so bitchy and bimbo.
just like me.
just joking (im not ego.)
wahaha.

shal end heree. cause,
the mids are coming.
-scReAmS-

idontwannarunawaybuticanttakeitidontunderstand`