okay. i think ive got over ystd's game. ive thought over it. no point feeling disheartened over it anyway. i mean, so what if we've lost. the most important thing is tht we learnt frm all the silly mistakes tht we've made, and dont repeat them anymore. thts the most important thing.

i remembered one thing tht happened whn i was young. i did smth really wrong. and my daddy was really disappointed and angry with me. and the next day, he came back with this very big poster, and stuck in on the wall. the poster writes like this.


whn you make a mistake
there're only three things you shld ever do abt it
1) admit it
2) learn frm it
3) dont repeat it


this poster had a really great impact on me. i can still remember it even till now. and i think the poster is still somewhere inside my cupboard. maybe i shld go and look for it someday.

the the nicest thing is, everyone arnd is telling me tht its not the end tht we've lost. we can still go on. they believed tht we've done our best, and we can do better. all the things tht say were really conforting, and they really made me feel better. i noe tht we've let all of them down. but i promise tht we'll do much better all the coming games okay. we'll not let anyone down anymore. we'll die to win the game. promise.

anyhows, our next coming game is on
2july, friday and its at NTU. theresian vs fajar.
its near boon lay, and its quite far frm sch. its not really very mobile for you girls to get there, but pls keep the hockey team in your prayers aye.

yupps. uhh. and one funnywierd thing. im beginning to enjoy geography lessons more and more. i dunno whyy, but i think mr tan kok wah(smth like tht) has a really good way of teaching. his lessons are full of jokes and fun. and i think thts a better way to deliever lessons. at least its not so boring like all the other lessons i had before.

ohs, and i can remember mr chua teaching us geography last yr. she's one wierd one. eekks. omg. she comes into class with some super yuckyuck shoes tht're really horrible. i remember there was one red pair, with a big golden ribbon stuck onto it. yuck. and i think her lessons are practially catching girls with low belts and cutting them off. and plus talking abt the environment and how important the plants are, and abt how we must take good care of them and water them everyday. so crap.

alright. enough of talking abt mrs chua. just so glad tht she's not our geography teacher this yr. phew. yeppers. thts abt all. i gtg now. i need to finish up my homework and get some rest. im tired. so there girlos. takecare. loves!

we're moving on`

aye. this shall be a short post. i'll be off soon. i need to get some sleep and wake up to finish my homework later in the night. ive got overdue hols assignments tht're yet to be completed, and i must finish them by tonight. so there.

today's game was a failure. we lost to crescent girls. and the score was 3-0. sighs. we shldnt have let in any goals in the first place. two of the goals were deflected into thhe goal. those two were really the accidental ones. those two were all our fault. we could have prevented them frm entering the goal. we could have. another goal was scored by a penalty flick. sighs.

its my fault. i screwed up the first half of the game. i think i was too tensed up and stressed whn the first goal was let in. i missed a few balls tht i hit, and i think i really played extremely badly in the first half. but the second half was much better. everyone ran harder and tried harder. we were greatly motivated by ms quek during the break between the first and second half. she really spoke right into me. and i wanted to do better then what i did during the first half. and i think i did.

the c'div team:
heyy. today's game was a failure. we lost. it wasnt paticularly anyone's fault. its all our fault, everyone's fault. though we played really badly during the first half, i think tht all of us played much better during the second half. really. i guess we were all motivated by what mr tan, ms quek and hema said. everyone played better then. i noe we did. even though we've lost this game, this is only the first game. its not the end yet. we must get it back. dont be disheartened. we must proud of theresian hockey. we cant be letting anyone else down alr. we must all win this friday's game okay. we MUST. think hard and reflect on today's game. rmb all tht we've learnt today. takecare and restwell. cyas in sch tomorrow. many many much loves!!

cause we lost it`

first day of sch.

today havent been really exciting or happening either. and i think my whole day was half screwed by some stuffs. didnt really enjoy the first day of sch. was saddened by some bad stuffs before sch starts, and was caught during the last second period for my low belt and socks by the stupid and annoying mrs chua. and she was abt to send me to the VP/DM whn mrs kong(P), mrs poh(VP) and ms martens(VP) coincidentally walked pass. and ms martens was really angry abt what she saw. after all, im a hockey girl. and frm what i heard, she'll suspend me frm trngs and games if she ever catches me with my low belt and socks agn. this is getting a lil too serious. dammit.

we're starting on geog this semester and we have mr tan kok wah who'll be teaching us. and i find him quite a fun and bubbly teacher to teach us. he's full of jokes and whn we're nice to him, he'll be nice to us too. ohs. we had the first session of dance lesson too. i find ms queenie quite a nice and funky dance teacher too.

oh yah. my hair was screwed. i really regreted cutting slope on my fringe. it was nice at first, but became so messy. but i didnt want to wear my hairband. its just spoiling my hair anw. and my fringe was super messy and whnever the wind starts blowing, it'll spread all over my face. it was such a great mess. and everyone was asking me whyy i looked so different today. and i had to tell them the whole story of whyy i cut my fringe.

stressed/-

i can feel more and more pressure stacking up on me. im feelling really stressed for tmr's game. its our first game, and we're playing against crescent. and the worser thing is, mr bulb wont be there throughtout the whole game. he'll be there before the game to brief us and tell us the matchplan and he'll leave shortly after. i heard tht his RI hockey boys are also playing on the same day as us, and i guess he'll leave for their game or smth. but whyy cant he be there whn we need him. we need him to be there to scream and scold us. and i noe we really need him. sighs.

the worst thing is. it seems tht half the world thinks tht stc is not gonna win tmr's game. i dunno whyy is it so. but it seem as though half the world had alr given up on stc. it really feels so bad to hear tht. its really saddening and hurting maybe to hear tht. and whyy must even some of the closest people have to think tht too. whyy. are we really tht bad and beyond any hope. whyy must half the world give up on us. whyy.

but so what if the world had given up on us. i havent given up at all. and i noe tht everyone playing havent given up too.

the magic word:
[[`BELIEVE!!

the c'div team`
heyy girlos. the time had passed. its really fast. our first game starts tomorrow. i dont really want to believe tht, but it is so. the time has come for our c'div tourni to start. and the first team we're playing with, is crescent girls. tomorrow. i noe everyone is feeling stressed and pressurized somewhat, somehow. im feeling really stressed too. i really am. ive been thinking and thinking abt the coming game, all these days, and until the extend tht even whn i close my eyes to slp, i can imagine the ball rolling towards me. the ball has been haunting me in my slp. and after so much tht ive thought of, i became so stressed. tomorrow's game might not be an easy one, but tht doesnt mean tht we're not gonna win. so what if half the world had given up on us. so what. i mean, thts not the end. the most important thing is tht we ourselves are not giving up. we're not going to give up no matter what. its not what the world thinks abt us. its what we think abt ourselves, and what we can all do to prove tht the world is wrong. really. i noe it'll be a tough game tmr. it will. plus mr bulb wont be there to see us through the whole game. but we still have our seniors there for us. they'll be there encouraging us, and motivating us to move on. they'll always be with us. but no matter what, we must not give up. we must communicate as much as we can and keep on motivating each other throughout the whole game. we must keep on running, and keep on playing hard. as long as the game still continues, and until the last whistle is blown, we havent lost yet. we must keep on playing till the end. i believe tht if we put our hearts and souls together and try hard enough, we can win tmr's game. its not impossible. remember mr bulb's favourite quote: `we cant wait for things to happen. we must make things happen. and we'll make it happen tomorrow. i really hope tht everyone is motivated to win tmr's game. and remember to read your files before going to bed tonight. dont think so much. we'll just give our best tomorrow. drink lotsa water. sleepwell and restwell tonight. we'll do it girlos. much loves!!

okay. i shall blog a short post today. went to church in the morning, and after service, the whole youth went for lunch at some hotel. but i didnt eat alot. it was quite fun larh. and then i went home after tht.

im going to go and get a pair of turf shoes and new shin-guards later. mr bulb says tht if we're not properly attired he'll not allow us to play. i need turf shoes and new shin-guards. cause mine is a lil too small i guess. and mr bulb has been making noise and i think ive got to get a new one. so there.

arh wells. sch is starting tmr. and i tell you smth stupid. i havent finished my hols assignments, and i dunno if i can rush through and finish them by tonight. dammit. i think i'll just stay up to watch the soccer match later, and at the same time do my homework. tht sounds like okay right. mmhm.

rightio! sch is starting tmr. i somewhat cant wait to get back to sch. i guess i missed everyone quite abit. lols. and ive got new hair now. hehhs. okayokay. thts abt it. i shall go and buy my new turf shoes now. takecare aye. cyas in sch tmr. much loves girlos!!

im such a pig. i slept frm 5 till 9pm. okay. thts abt four hrs. maybe not a pig larh. lols. i was really tired. trng today was so long, i dunno how to explain it. okay, read on then.

today was quite a bad day. i was late for trng, but not on purpose. i didnt mean to be late okay. cause granny had a fall and was admitted to the hospital. sighs. and we had to visit her at the hospital in the morning, and as a result, i was late. i rushed home to get my stuffs, and cab to sch, but i was still quite late. i was 40minutes late. crap. but mr bulb didnt chase me home, cause i had a good reason. phew.

today's trng was damn long okay. we trained for four and a half hrs. lols. it was really a long trng. but we didnt run much. so it was still okay. we did quite alot of hitting and sweeping, and towards the end, mr bulb confirmed who are the girls tht'll be registered for this tourni and he explained the game plan to us. then we did defence and short-corners attack. yeaps.

i didnt noe i was involved in the defending during short-corners. okay. maybe not. maybe i was just taking bernetta's place. im not sure also, but i trained for the defence part too. it was, i guess my first time doing it, and i made alot of mistakes. and mr bulb scolded me quite abit. but it was okay. and now i noe how to defend during a short corner attack alr. so i might need to drop and defend during short corners. wells thts for mr bulb to decide anw.

we did short corner attacks too. tht one was easier for me. cause ive trained for quite alot for tht. but we did different situations today. and i made alot of mistakes at first too. and mr bulb was scolding me like anything. he scolded me alot today. i think the most tht he've ever scolded me okay. he's really scary and i was so scared, sometimes, i just want to run away and hide. lols. but of course i didnt do tht. it'll be silly to do tht.

im really anxious and stressed for this coming tourni. everyone is, i guess. i mean, who cant help feeling abit worried for this tourni. sighs. and the first game is alr so near. next tuesday, and we're playing with crescent. i dunno how well crescent is playing now, and im quite sure tht crescent is also trying to guess how we're doing now. ohwell, we'll all see on tuesday.

thts abt it all. im feeling too high to continue blogging. i shall go look for smth to eat. im hungry. the last meal i ate was at, err, 1pm? okayokay. my tummy is growling. i need food. yupps.

take great care people. enjoy the last day of your june hols tomorrow. and we'll all be back to sch mugging agn aye. lols. much loves!!

[[`even angels would be homesick in the forsaken town/+

this is the last friday of the june hols. the hols are coming to an end agn. everyone will be going back to sch, and it'll soon be time to start mugging for the exams agn. part of me doesnt want the hols to end, but part of me wants to go to back to sch agn. i somehow missed sch, so surprisingly, but i really miss the sch days. not trying to be studious, but, i dunno whyy also. i guess i miss everyone. lols. tht sounds more like it aye.

i havent really started on my hols assignments, and i think ive still got alot more to go. dammit. the moment i think abt my assignments, i just feel suddenly saddened. i dont understand my work, and i still have alot to do. i think i'll be screwed whn sch starts, and whn the teachers collects those assignments. i noe i'll be screwed.

sighs. i really need help with my sch work. im extremely helpless with my maths and science. and i really need help, or else i'll die. my dear linhui has promised to help me with my sch work. and i'll make sure she keeps her words and really help me this time. im serious abt studying hard after this hols, and i must. i think ive played enough during this whole hols, and i really need to study hard alr. im now far behind time, and i really hope tht time will wait for me to catch up, but it will never. so i need to study really really hard this time.

ohs golly!! mummy just came home with a 2litre tub of icecream. mind you, its a whole 2 damn litres. dammit. how can mummy do this to me. she practically knows tht im on a diet, but she have to bring tht stupid thing home. they're trying to tempt me agn. grr.

alright. im tired. im going to rest now, and i'll watch soccer later in the morning. how can england bloody lose to portugal. and how can beckham miss the penalty. omg. how can this be. it was total madness. ohmyholyshit.

okayokay. i said i wanted to stop here, but i gt carried away. lols. i shall stop here. ohs, and someone just gimme a call just in case i oversleep okay. thts abt it. takecare aye. much loves!!

) )*winkwinks

had trng in sch today. we did physical trng and we played 2sides. it wasnt really as tiring like those we did before. but i think trng was okay. ohs, and we went to town after tht. it was quite fun, mmhm maybe not. okay. huajia was crazy today. she kept on holding on to my hand(ahem!). and the worst thing was, she didnt want to let go. eekks. it was quite annoying, but i think its quite funny. lols. i dunno whyy.

okay. i shall write smth for her to make her happy.
huajia!! you silly girl. happy alr right. i became your girlfrend for today. better be happy(lols). ohs, and you still owe me my powerpuff girls colouring book. gimme soon okay. im thinking of it. sighs. i want it, i want it!!

sighs. now im trying to figure out what is the best place to go. where shld we go tomorrow. go tanning at sentosa or singing at k-box. or maybe go shopping for all the bimbo stuffs. i really have no idea which is the better place to go. sighs. BIGsigh.

okayokay. please gimme a idea of where to go aye. and if you want to come along, you can just gimme a call or drop me a msg. rightio. thts abt it for today. takecare aye. much loves!!

) )*winkwinks

im currently trying to figure out smth tht has been in my mind for a long long time. but i cant seem to get an answer. nono. its actually more like this. i seem to have a problem in my mind, but it seems tht i dont even noe what the problem is. its like recalling smth, but not knowing what it is. i noe there is a problem, but i dunno what the problem is. and im thinking and thinking, but everything tht runs through my mind is nothing related to what i think the problem is. i mean, thts what i feel. the more i think abt it, the more blurr i get. and this is getting more and more confusing. i noe tht there's a problem, but i dont seem to know whats the problem.

okayokay. i think ure starting to feel a lil blurr after reading what ive typed right. im actually feeling much more blurr then what ure feeling now. and so tht means tht im really blurr now. hur. i dunno what im typing. i just want to know whats the stupid problem is, and figure it out. but i seem to get more and more lost in my thoughts. maybe i shld continue thinking through the night whn i cant sleep. tht'll be better. and who noes, maybe i'll be so tired after thinking, i fall asleep. i hope so aye.

went to school today. was supposingly suppose to help mrs martens sort the old school photos with carolyn and hitomi. but carolyn had a headache in the morning, and she didnt go to school. hitomi and i went to school, and guess what. mrs martens wasnt there. okay. and we didnt have anything much to do. so we went to the canteen and start talking. and now i realised smth. miss hitomi toh only appears to be soft-spoken and quiet. but the thing is, hitomi is really a noisy and talkative girl! she only appears to be quiet. but now i find her a loud and interesting girl to talk to. i noe tht it seem to be a lil hard to believe, but im serious.

and we went to town after tht. i took such a long time to 'drag' hitomi to town with me okay. she didnt want to go at first, cause she says tht she wants to go home and do her homework. such a good girl right. i must start learning frm her. lols. but in the end, she still went to town with me. hehhs. we met ruth after tht and we went shopping arnd taka. and we went to cine after tht. and, err, i think i shldn't blog abt tht. lols. okayokay.

and after tht, hitomi left, and only ruth and i was left in town. and i realised smth. ruth is such a glutton. she eats and eats. non-stops. and she is always tempting me with all the food she eats. but im not suppose to eat cause im on a diet. hahs. wah. tht girl arh, i tell you, she'll be hungry after a lil while, and she'll start wanting to eat. and she keeps on eating and eating. eat so much. sighs.

mummy is totally unreasonable. i dunno whats with her, she starts scolding and screaming at me the moment she steps home. i really dunno whats the problem with her. i didnt even do anything wrong okay. and before i can even explain to her anything, she'll start scolding me. what is this. i really want to scold her sometimes. its not like everything is my fault. but she seem to think tht im the cause of every problem and everything bad. she'll start accusing and scolding me and whatsoevershit without even making sure its my fault. i noe she has her moods too, but its getting abit too much. i cant stand the way she thinks tht everything is my fault. what a bitch.

and mummy has just spoilt my mood for the night. so annoying. and now im in a horrible bad mood now. idiot. i really hate the way she thinks tht everything is my fault. i hate the way she scolds me without any reasons. and i hate the way she plays her moods on me. whatsoevershit.

tht shall be all till now. im cheese-ed off and i dont have any mood left to continue blogging. takecare aye. much loves!!

oh my, my. i didnt sleep at all last night okay. AT ALL! i didnt even use the eyeliner, but my eyes look as if its eyeliner-ed. tht means im starting to have eye-rings. and even mummy realised tht. crap. i think i really need to go and see a doctor who specialist in sleeping illness. i dont even noe what kind of sickness i have. maybe its insomia. i somehow just cant get to sleep. i dunno whyy.

i really dont want to start on sleeping pills. i mean, i was on them before, and i feel like i was on drugs and i really dont want to start on them agn. i havent been sleeping well, and even eating well these days. my life seem to get more and more screwed. and i cant let it continue to be screwed anymore.

whn can i start sleeping like normal agn. maybe i shldn't sleep for few days, and try tiring myself out. then i think i'll be able to sleep. and i dont mind sleeping for days. i really want my sleep back.

all these sleepless nights are killing me.

trng today wasnt really good for me. it seem to be super long. i was feeling damn shagged(cause i didnt sleep and i was tired!) i could almost feel myself wanting to pass out anytime. i was alr getting ready to faint or smth. lols. i noe im silly, but i was feeling really bad at tht time. but luckily i didnt. i still continued through the whole trng.

and i got scolded by mr bulb anyways(as usual). he always scream and yell at us. i didnt really mind him scolding me and all during all the previous trngs, but i felt really bad today. i dunno whyy. i mean, i alr tried my best okay. and i was feeling damn tired and i didnt want to go on actually. but i still continued. i tried. but he still have to scold me agn and agn. okay. maybe it was partly my fault too. i shld have tried harder or smth. sighs.

this whole hols seem to be my saddest one. it havent been really very happening. didnt get all the time of the world to play like how i used to play during all the other hols i had. almost everyday was hockey, hockey and hockey. i dont mind, i love hockey, but im getting really tired. but im still going on. i really hope i have all the strength and energy to move on. i have to. and i will, willingly.

i can feel the pressure coming to me, slowly and slowly. i dunno whyy, but i feel really pressurized for the coming c'div tourni. its not going to be easy this time. i noe its not. we have to move on with what we have now, what we are now. okayokay. i shldn't think too much. i cant be discourage. i have to continue to stay strong.

nothing much to say at the ending now. just hope tht i'll stop suffering frm sleepless nights and i'll get my sleep back soon. and i want to be eating well agn. and hope tht everyone is happy with the hols and stay happy. school term is going to start soon. hope to see everyone really soon. yeaps.

much loves!!

this love.

i was so high i did not recognize
the fire burning in her eyes
the chaos that controlled my mind
whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
never to return again
but always in my heart

this love has taken its toll on me
she said goodbye too many times before
and her heart is breaking in front of me
i have no choice cause i won't say goodbye anymore

i tried my best to feed her appetite
keep her coming every night
so hard to keep her satisfied
kept playing love like it was just a game
pretending to feel the same
then turn around and leave again

this love has taken its toll on me
she said goodbye too many times before
and her heart is breaking in front of me
i have no choice cause i won't say goodbye anymore

i'll fix these broken things
repair your broken wings
and make sure everything's alright
my pressure on her hips
sinking my fingertips
into every inch of you
cause I know that's what you want me to do

arh wells. ive just changed my blog layout to smth much more plain and simple. and i think tht its quite nice though. its not as complicated and sophiscated as those tht i had before, but i still think its nice. after all, this layout looks better then my previous one. right?

my head is spinning. i noe tht im going to suffer frm insomia tonight agn. tonight will be another sleepless night for me. someone who cant sleep, pls start msg-ing me or gimme a call aye. sighs.

ohs, i forgot this. hockey girls, we're planning to go to sentosa this friday. we'll prolly go to palawan/siloso beach to tann and play. lols. pls try to make yourselves available alright. and pass this msg to the hockey girls arnd aye. we'll confirm everything during tmr's trng. yeaps.

okayokay. hockey trng tmr starts frm, 9-11am at NTU.

so, everyone gets a good night rest and forget abt all troubles and worries okay. this is our last week left to train. we must make use of our last precious week aye. take good care. rest well.

) )*winkwinks

ohs golly. i didnt realise tht i didnt blog for so many days. alrights. the past few days wasnt really eventful or anything. nothing much to do(as usual) and was quite bored. i guess i just keep on going to town. thts all i do all week.

okayokay. today was the finals for SHFunder18 girlsplate. and mr bubl wasnt there just now. sighs. we played with CSC B(yuhua's b'div). and we lost. the score was preeteh bad. 6-0. uhh. though i didnt really play today(only played for 10-15mins), i guess, everyone did preeteh okay today. maybe a lil lack of communication.

ohs, and our dear shaleen was hitted by the stick on the side of her forehead. she suffered from a small cut, and she bleed quite abit. but thankfully she's alright now. just hope tht everything is okay and she'll recover soon.

but overall wasnt tht bad though. and we're the runners-up for the girls plate. not too bad. yeaps. and we entered this tournament just for the exposure of it. especially for the c'div girls.

and i think the c'div girls have all done quite well. i think everyone imroved trmendously during the camp, and still improving trng by trng. and we're all getting more bonded as all the trngs pass. which is really a good thing. i mean, im really glad tht at least we're all going to somewhere together. not like before anymore.

this is to all the c'div girlos`
heyy. to all those who've played for the under18 tourni, well done. we're all doing really well. lets keep up the good work and the team bonded like always okay. time is running short for us. we dont have much time left like before. we have only a week more to train for our coming c'div tourni. our first game is on 29june(second day of school) and we're playing against crescent(as confirmed by mr tan). sighs. they might not be tht good, but yet they might not be tht bad. we must not underestimate them. and i think we must really put in alot and alot of effort to win this tourni. okay. maybe not win and get first, but at least the top3. at least. we must first train hard and get into the quarter finals before anything. thts our first goal alright. really hope tht everyone will train hard, and stay bonded through this hols, and even after tht. lets keep up all our good work, dont forget what we've learnt, and continue to learn and improve. take this week's trngs seriously and learnt as much as we can alrights. we'll do it girlos. takecare. restwells. cyas during trng. i l u *

`maybe fate fell short this time

wells. im confused. sighs.

aye.aye. im feeling much better today i guess. i was such a good girl okay. i stayed at home the whole day. so unlikely of charisa right. no larh. i didnt really sleep at all last night. plus i dont really have the mood to go out today. thts whyy i stayed at home. and i was so bored at home okay. so so bored. sighs.

ohs. ruth created a longjohnfamily blog. lols. so funny okay. go check out the links. longjohnfamily. hehhs. this blog is especially for the longjohnfamily of stc hockey. hahs. cause stc hockey loves longjohns. we eat longjohns everytime after trngs okay. hehhs. we're addicted to it. hur. and did i mention, i'll be the new bimbo waitress of the longjohnfamily. i shall wear a short mini skirt(ahem!) and serve the customers. lols.

and my nuer is back!! brenda is backk. whoo-hoo. really missed her alot okay. so glad tht she's back. but she missed the hockey camp. all tht funn tht we had. hahas. so funny. i cant think of tht alr. im going to start laughing. hehhs.

so yeahh. thts abt it. and i wont be going for hockey trng tmr. ive got doctor's appointment. yeaps. train hard girlos. longjohns will be waiting for all of you tmr. wheeeeeeees!

) )*winkwinks

vulnerable.

im here all by myself,
just trying to think of smth to do,
just anything,
just to keep myself frm thinking abt yo[u*]

the hurt beneath me,
isnt only skin deep,
its soul deep.
the pain i feel cuts through my flesh,
and the hurt reaches till the depth of my soul.

i guess i still need you baby.
but i noe tht time will not turn back for us,
things will never be the same agn,
you'll never be mine agn.

i want to forget yo[u*]
but ure still looking so delicious.

hurtbyyo[u*]

whee. i didnt blogg ystd. cause i went for a shopping spree with mummy. and i bought quite alot of clothes. yeaps. in total, i bought three jeans, one skirt, and six tops. all frm esprit and zara. lols. mummy was in such a happy mood, i dunno whyy, tht she agreed to buy all those clothes for me at one go. okay. thts good for me i guess.

ohs. and we had a hockey match with acjc. we won. the score was 5-0. yeaps. i think it was a good game. mr bulb wasnt there, but we were still be able to do well. okay. at least i think tht we tried. and i think everyone have given their best. just tht if everyone communicate more, we might be able to do better. uhh.

and there was an accident during the game. i think one of joan's ball was accidently deflected, and it smashed right into one of the acjc's girl mouth. and she immediately fell to the ground and cried. she was bleeding quite badly. i could see quite alot of blood flowing out of her mouth. and i think she broke two of her teeth or smth. sighs. tht girl was such a preeteh girl. and i really pity her for breaking two of her teeth. it was a total accident. no one wanted it to happen. but i still feel quite sad for tht girl. sighs.

alrights. back to today. went to town today(as usual). everyone wasnt available today. so i gave ruth a call, and i went out with her. lols. yeaps. ruth wanted to play lan, but i objected(like duh!). so we went shopping. hahs. it was really funny. everything we saw, we came to a conclusion, and we just laughed like crazyy. lols. all we did was laugh, laugh, and laugh. hahs.

ohs. then we met charmaine with her mummy and sister at taka. yeaps. and dunno what happened, we were so called 'shopping' with charmaine with her mummy and sister. lols. we just tagged along, and accompanied charmaine while her mummy tries on clothes. yeppers. it was quite fun larh, actually.

yeaps. thts bout it. i shall stop here as for now. im going to take a rest, and maybe study for awhile. ive got quite alot to catch up. sighs.

anyhows, takecare and enjoy your hols aye. loveya.

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wheeeeeee. im finally back frm hockey camp. wahaha. it really feel so good to be home again. i missed many things. in fact, i think i missed everything. i really missed my room, my bed, my comp, and of course you guys. hehhs. okay. ive got alot of things to blog. so this will be a super longg post aye. and i'll briefly blogg abt the camp too.

oh my, oh my. i think ive got so much to blogg.

okay, honestly speaking. before this camp, i was really dreading to go for it. i noe tht it'll be really tough and tiring. and i thought tht its super long. five-day camp. but after the whole camp, it changed most of my perspective. it was a really great and enjoyable camp. and i think i really learnt alot frm it. alot.

okayokay. all we do is, train, train and train. we trained alot throughout these five days. we've got morning exercise(physical trng) every morning before day breaks, then we'll have a school trng, which can lasts frm between two-and-half, to close to four-hours. and we also have a 2hour pitch trng and NTU everyday. hahs. its sounds damn tough aye? but if you went through all these, you'll realise tht it wasnt tht tough, right girlos? well, we've all gone through it together, and still happily alive now. right. hehhs.

ohs. how i can i forget abt the viseo sessions(ahem!). wahaha. tht one is the best, i tell you. you noe whyy. cause the superr annoying, idiotic, irritating, silly and stupid mr tan lin how went to video all the trngs sessions we had. and at the end of everyday, during our video session, he'll play our whole trng processes and we'll be able to see all the angels(ahem!) perform. lols.

alright. back to the serious part. i think the video sessions were really useful. we're all able to see how ourselves perform during the trngs we had, and through the five days, we can really see each other improve. day by day. it was really great to see tht everyone was really trying, and training hard. its really nice to see everyone trying and improving at the same time. yeaps.

but i have to admit tht the videos we watched were really quite funny and hilarious at times. sometimes. hehhs. we could see all the silly mistakes tht we made, and i think tht was whyy mr bulb have to scream and yell at us so much during trngs. the mistakes we made were really silly. i think tht watching ourselves perform, was the best way to see and realise our mistakes. and i learnt alot through tht too. yeppers.

other then trngs, and everything, the rest of the time we spent together was really great. really, really. we talked about crazy stuffs and thought of so many crazyy ideas of what we shld make the person do, when we were playing truth or dare. we can even start laughing when we see each other laugh. its just like a contagious dieases tht spreaded so fast. soon, everyone was laughing. hehhs. all we did was just laughed, laughed and laughed.

i mean, all of us kinda bonded alot more through all those times we had with each other. okay. at least i felt tht way. i feel tht at least we're all going to somewhere together. it was much better then before. i think all of the sec2s bonded quite abit, and i hope tht we'll all stay bonded even after this camp. i hope tht this camp will be a good headstart for all of us to start bonding together and to train hard together for our coming c'div tourni.

and honestly, i can see tht the cresent hockers are really bonded. its obvious, and i noe tht everyone can see tht. they hang out together after trngs, and all the things they do just made them look very bonded. the togetherness they had, made me feel the warmth and i sometimes feel jealous, and i somehow hope tht our own team will be like tht too. and i think tht we've achieved quite abit through this whole camp. i hope tht all of us will stay as close kintted as we were in the future to come. i really hope.

and i think tht mr bulb wasnt as scary and as bad as we thought tht he was. during the first briefing when we had, he said tht off the field, he'll be a nice and lovable man. and it really seem tht way tht he said. i think tht he's a really nice man. he almost seem like a grand-daddy to me. he has our well-being in mind always. and we always comes first. i think tht he's really a great coach. having him as our coach, what more can we ask for. im really thankful for having a coach like mr bulb. he's one in a million. maybe one in a billion. one of a kind.

and maybe i can say tht he's the best hockey coach we can ever find on earth. mr bulb simply rock our hockey socks. aye girlos? wheeeeeees.

during the last de-briefing we had, i could really feel tht warmth tht everyone felt in themselves. the things tht mr bulb and mr tan said, made me realised tht im really fortunate to have all tht i have now. my school, my family, my frends, my house, my everything. and at one point of time, i dunno whyy, but i just feel like crying. i realised all the mistakes and short-comings tht ive made, and all the things tht ive somehow fallen-short of. and ive learnt how to appreciate all the things tht i have arnd me, and my everything.

and so i say. this camp was really a great learing process for me, and i hope so for the rest of you girlos too. i havent got enough of this camp. it was really great. the best i ever had. hockey camp 2004 rocks. i l u *

this is to all the hockey girls tht attended the camp, even for those who didnt attend it, and its especially for all the c'div girlos*

`heyy. this camp was really great. we went through this whole camp together. these five days sounded quite long at first. remember? but its over. and i somehow havent got enough of this camp. i noe tht all of you enjoyed it. ive come to noe more about all of you. and i really appreciated the way all of you are made. just the way you are. this is especially for the sec2s. all of us have bonded quite alot through this whole camp. remember the things and aims we said we wanted to do during the sports camp? and tht last night tht we all cried together. and i think tht this hockey camp was a good headstart for all of us. lets stay as bonded as we were during this hockey camp, and forgive and forget all the short-comings tht we had before. let us all stay as close knitted and bonded as we were during the camp, train really really super hard for the coming c'div tourni, and prove to everyone tht we can do it as much as others can do it too. alright? lets believe tht we can make it. we'll all put our hearts and soul and give our best. whatever the outcome it might be, we've all tried and given our best. alrights? we'll do it girlos. and i noe tht all of you mean the world to me. i-love-you girlos. muah.

and lets `fly like a butterfly, and sting like a bee.
theresian hockey forver!!

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okayokay. this will be the last post for this week before i leave for hockey camp. i'll not be online frm monday until prolly friday night when i break frm the camp. im going to miss my comp like crazy. yeaps.

rightio. i feel really bad. i was late for today's game. i wasnt even there when the game started. i overselpt. and i feel really bad. and i really thank daddy for rushing and sending me there. ohs. now abt the result of the game. we won. 3-1. we beat yuhua. yeppers.

ehs. actually i used to think tht yuhua is a chicken school. i use to hate tht school. but today's game changed part of my perspective of tht school. i think tht they're all normal girlos like us. and i think they're preeteh nice too. hahas. i dont noe why i say tht. but i just think tht they're quite alright. lols.

and i really dont feel like going for the camp. i noe we'll all be having intensive trngs. and i noe they'll kill. under the coaching of mr bulb. this camp will be a killer. mr bulb says tht he'll overwork us. and tht means the end of us. sighs.

alrights. this is especially for brenda. she's leaving for taiwan tmr.
`nuerr!! i dunno if you'll be reading this. but all i want to say is. dont think too much larh. everything's gonna be okay aye. just train harder when ure back and show mr bulb tht you can do it too. okay. dont let what mr bulb said affect you. i noe you'll do it. and enjoy your hols. play all tht you can. eat all tht you want. lols. we'll all miss you. mummy will miss nuerr the most!! yeaps. takecare. loveyou many many. mwa.

thts bout it. i shall stop here. i got to pack my camp stuffs now. its getting late. yeaps. takecare aye. i'll be back on friday. will miss you all loads. mwa.

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heyy. i havent been blogging for these few days. was really tired and didnt really feel like blogging anyways. this whole week havent been really eventful. things didnt go well and all. in fact, i think this has been quite a bad week, maybe until now, i guess. lets hope tht everything gets better. shall just update on the previous days tht i didnt blog. yeaps.

tuesday was our first under-18 girls tourni game. we played with jansenite warriors, and the result is, we lost. 6-0. okay. i was playing as right mid-fielder, and i was preeteh lost when i was playing. i didnt noe what i was doing. i dont even noe what i doing when i was helping in the defence. crap. i noe i let in a goal. one was my fault. and i missed one of the ball tht joan passed to me. i think i screwed everything up.

maybe it was expected, tht we're losing, but i still can't help feeling a lil upset over it. can i. plus the fact tht one of their goal was my fault. i didnt cover up sushmita's right, and i let in a goal, thru the stupid hole. tht i could have prevented if i covered my right properly. its all my fault. my fault.

anyhows. just want to thank ken and his chiobu frend for coming to watch the match. i noe ure reading this somehow. maybe the two of you just came because you didnt have anything to do. and though the two of you dont really understand what was happening thru the whole game, but by being there was alr enough. thks a bunch aye.

thts was all for tuesday. wednesday was quite boring too. my new wardrobe came. i swear tht its super big. there's still a huge full body-length mirror on it. its even bigger and taller then me. hehhs. i just love it. yeaps.

anyways. was suppose to attend zhiyi's birthday parteh. but i didnt go in the end. i feel quite bad. zhiyi, i noe ure reading this now. im really sorry tht i couldnt make it to your parteh. sorry aye. hope tht all of you enjoyed yourselves ystd. a happy belated birthday to you dear.

alright. today's match was a failure too. we lost to cresent. 1-0. we shouldnt have lost this game in the first place. we were really so close to scoring everytime we reach the 'D' but we somehow lose the ball. we were really close to scoring many times. but we didnt even score at all.

and though i only played in the last fifteen to twenty minutes of the second half, i made a big mistake. i missed the last chance we had to score. and abt three minutes after i missed the stupid chance to score, the game ended. damn. it just ended. and we lost. we shid at least get a draw or smth. how can we lose this game. crap. its my all fault. my fault.

sighsighs. alright. i think we shld all just stop blameing ourselves, and think of the mistakes we've done. and lets not repeat them agn okay. let it go. im sure we'll do better this sunday. we must beat the chicken school okay. hehhs. rightio.

`this is for all the under18 girlos.
heyy girlos. im in a lost for words. but i noe tht all of us can't help feeling a lil upset tht we lost both of our games. maybe we all could have done better, but its alr over. we shld just forget abt them, and look to the future. let it go. there are precious lessons tht we can learn frm. lets not repeat the mistakes tht we've made. and dont let mr bulb down anymore. i noe we'll all do better in this sunday's game. alrights? we'll do it girlos. takecare. restwell. loveyou all truckloads. muah.

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