i just changed my blog to a private one. means, you need to have my password to access it. yupp. you got to read this because uve got my password. haha. actually, i really hate to do this. i think a public blog is nicer, but i think ive got quite enough.

maybe uve read my tags for the past two days. i dont know who is 'tas' or whoever her clique is. and i think tht is quite enough. and i think since they claim tht they really hate me, they shld just tell my straight in my face, and not spam my tags again and again. im not scared to continue the game with them, but i think if they keep on spamming, it'll be damn annoying for me to reply their stupid msges. and i think its really shit.

and pls dont pass my password arnd if i ever give it to you okay. cause i want to prevent all those stupid spammers. and if ever there's any spamms, i'll just have to change my password again.

byes-

glory of love; peter cetera

tonight its very clear
cause we're both lying here
there's so many things
i wanna say
i will always love you
i will never leave you alone
sometimes i just forget,
say things i might regret
it breaks my heart to see you crying
i don't want to lose you
i could never make it alone

i am a man who would fight for your honor
i'll be the hero you're dreaming of
we'll live forever knowing together
that we did it all for the glory of love

you keep me standing tall
you help me through it all
i'm always strong when you're beside me 
i have always needed you
i could never make it alone

i am a man who would fight for your honor
i'll be the hero you've been dreaming of
we'll live forever knowing together
that we did it all for the glory of love

it's like a knight in shining armor
from a long time ago
just in time i will save the day
take you to my castle far away

i am the man who will fight for your honor
i'll be the hero that you're dreaming of
we're gonna live forever knowing together
that we did it all for the glory of love

we live forever knowing together
that we did it all for the glory of love

we did it all for love
we did it all for love
we did it all for love
we did it all for love..

glory of love; peter cetera

tonight its very clear
cause we're both lying here
there's so many things
i wanna say
i will always love you
i will never leave you alone
sometimes I just forget,
say things I might regret
it breaks my heart to see you crying
i don't want to lose you
i could never make it alone

i am a man who would fight for your honor
i'll be the hero you're dreaming of
we'll live forever knowing together
that we did it all for the glory of love

you keep me standing tall
you help me through it all
i'm always strong when you're beside me
i have always needed you
i could never make it alone

i am a man who would fight for your honor
i'll be the hero you've been dreaming of
we'll live forever knowing together
that we did it all for the glory of love

it's like a knight in shining armor
from a long time ago
just in time i will save the day
take you to my castle far away

i am the man who will fight for your honor
i'll be the hero that you're dreaming of
we're gonna live forever knowing together
that we did it all for the glory of love

we live forever knowing together
that we did it all for the glory of love

we did it all for love
we did it all for love
we did it all for love
we did it all for love..

im so angry now. my brother just cheesed me off sometimes. idiot. after i took my shower, i signed into my msn, and i found out tht there're so many wierd contacts tht i dont even know in my contacts. and i also found out tht my stupid annoying brother was the one who deleted some of my contacts(i dunno who) and added some from nowhere(i dunno who too!) into my contacts. now i'll have so much explaining to do whn those people sign in and ask me why i added them. this is so irritating and annoying. crap. 

anw, today was such a long day. i dunno why, but it just seem extremely long. just started on the homeroom system today, cause belinda had recovered from her factured ankle. and one week is over, so we're not suppose to be studying in the library anymore. i miss studying in the library. i think its so nice okay. at least better then switching classrooms and travelling arnd the whole damn school right. homeroom system sucks. fuckshit.

ohwell. im so tired. and i dunno what happened to me. i just came straight home after school today. lols. im such a good girl. waha. actually not so la. i mean, all i do everyday if there's no hockey trng, is going to town. and i found myself spending most of my time in town. and being in town is also meaningless. nothing much to do there. its just seeing and meeting the same people, and doing shopping. town just gets so boring whn ure there everday. agree? yesyes.

alright. i shall go and catch some sleep. my contacts are getting dry, and im so tired now. i'll be back later in the evening alright. so there. ta.

waha. im so bored here, and so i decided to blog abt racial harmony night. this will be a long post. my my. i didnt know tht racial harmony night could be so much of fun. lols. really. i actually dreaded, and even wanted to pon it. but well, i didnt. i would have missed so much fun and everything. and if i were those who didnt attended it, i would have regreted it.
 
it started out like a normal school day. we went to school, but school ended at 10am. didnt have much lessons, except, we had a maths test, and geography lessons. four miserable periods. whn we were dismissed, brenda, jillian, yiting and i went to town. didnt have much to do, so we walked and shopped arnd, till it was time for us to report to school.
 
everyone assembled in our homeroom, and i was there too. and i dunno what happened, i suddenly had a sudden urge to puke. so i ran to the toilet(brenda was running aftr me), lols. and then i puked. eekks. thurges was outside too. all of them sounded so scared and worried whn they asked me if i was okay. lols. so funny.
 
so i didnt go for the walk to labrador. anyways, i alr didnt feel like walking there. and plus i vomitted, so i stayed in school. stayed in the canteen with elaine, gwen, shermin and ziping for quite some time. it was so funny okay. we just kept on laughing and laughing. i tell you smth. gwen is one hell of a crazy woman. lols. she's just so high and hyper every moment, and sometimes i just wonder if she belongs to this world. she doesnt seem to have any worries. tht girl ar. just so nice and cute.
 
then i went back to homeroom with cheryl. rubini, samantha, shamini, tanya and yiting, were alr there. they were trying on the costumes for the modelling later tht night. rubini spent such a long time trying to wear the saree for samantha. and tht silly sam. she was trying to cover her stomach, cause she didnt want to expose her fats in her tummy, but forgetting tht she was alr half exposed(i shall not elaborate). lols.
 
so samantha stood on a table, and rubini stood on a chair, trying to wrap her up with the saree. and it took quite a long time for everything to be actually done. oh. and i appiled makeup for samantha and yiting. both of them were so noisy. they kept on asking me not to put on too thick of makeup for them. espcially yiting. so noisy. and after whn everything was done, my my. they both looked so chio okay. still complain and whine before tht. so silly.
 
then it was finally time for everyone to gather at the hardcourt. before tht, there was so much of a hassel for cheryl and me, cause we were checking out if everyone brought the food, and everything. the canteen was so messy. food all over the place. so messy, so horrible. okay. then we assembled for the concert. waha. the little ij girls from ij kellock primary, and ij bukit timah primary performed for us. and they were so cute. oh my god. so so cute.
 
then after tht it started to drizzled, and everyone were asked to find a dry spot to have dinner. and tht was the most messy part. kylie suggested tht we go to the light house to have our dinner, and the whole class went there. but in the end, kylie wasnt there. then i heard tht they had changed the venue to outside the library. and everyone went there. and after tht, mrs low said tht we were suppose to be back at the hardcourt. it was so messy. so irritating.
 
and we finally settled down, and were trying to eat, and there was this whole mess of food. food was everywhere arnd me. i was like sitting in the middle of all the food. aiyo. and we spilled coke and cherryade accidentally all over the place. haha. so horrible. but i think it was still quite fun la.
 
then we had to clear up. and samantha and yiting won the first award for the modelling okay. waha. we were so happy. and we started screaming. lols. we're a bunch of crazy and hyper girlos. and then it was the fusion dance. lols. so funny. everyone was dancing and shaking. i was laughing like crazy. it was just so fun. my my. after everything, the councillors flimed homerun and everyone just set down and watched. it was somehow nice to see people of all races sitting down and watching a chinese movie. yupps.
 
oh yeah. and cecilia appeared. waha. i so missed her okay. she was so nice to gimme a call whn she was in school. and i think she had became so chio now. preety woman ar. wanted to catch up with her, but she disappeared. lols. anyway, some of us left early, even before the show ended. i was alr so tired, and so hot and stinky, so i decided to take a cab home, since daddy couldnt send me home.
 
uhh. tht was all tht happened during racial harmony night. it was really so nice, so fun and so funny. lols. okayokay. i shall ask michelle if i can upload the pictures taken tht day from her, and i shall upload them here alright. so there. takecare aye. much loves!!

i think this song is so great. i love it.

avril lavigne; my happy ending

so much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh..
let's talk this over
its not like we're dead
was it something i did?
was it something you said?
dont leave me hanging
in a city so dead
held up up so high
on such a breakable thread

you were all the things i thought i knew
and i thought we could be

chorus.
you were everything, everything that i wanted
we were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
and all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh..

you've got your dumb friends
i know what they say
they tell you im difficult
but so are they
but they dont know me
do they even know you?
all the things you hide from me
all the shit that you do

you were all the things i thought i knew
and i thought we could be

chorus.
its nice to know you were there
thanks for acting like you cared
and making me feel like i was the only one
its nice to know we had it all
thanks for watching as i fall
and letting me know we were done

chorus x2.
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh..

waha. i came across this new layout, and i think its preetaye sweet. dont you think so too. so i decided to try it out. i havent put any tagboard on this blog yet. i'll do it tomorrow. i still like my plain layout, but im trying this out for some time. whn i get sick of it, i will change it to my old plain one. yeaps. 

anw,  my computer is finally fixed. so now, im back blogging. i havent been using my comp since last thursday i think. thts like quite a long time ago. and i really missed my comp and everything. so happy tht its done.

this week had been quite happening, but i dont think i'll blog abt it today. i shall blog sgn maybe tomorrow. ive got to let my sista and brother who are so excited tht the computer is fixed to use it. they're bugging and pissing me. so annoying. lols.

so there. takecare aye. much loves!!

alright. i just heard some news from huajia. i dunno whether its really or not, cause according to mr tan, its not like tht. i dunno which is right. anw, huajia said tht if we beat crescent in goals difference, then we'll be able to go into the quarters. or unless some miracle happens, crescent lose to farjar, (which i think will be quite impossoble) then we'll be in the quarters. this is so confusing.

anw, we shall just play for our pride's sake tomorrow. ive cheered up quite alot, put aside all those sad things, and im ready to play agn. ive gotten over all the scoldings mr bulb had given me. and i shall start agn. i mean, no point taking all his words to heart, and feel so bad abt it. anw, i noe all those mistakes ive done, so i'll try my best to correct them. yeaps.

anw, i think daddy is just so so so nice. too nice sometimes. he's the bestest best daddy in the world okay. although i had a major quarell with mummy and him ystd for accusing me of doing smth tht i didnt. but i think he's still so nice. he bought for me smth i wanted, and ya, he bought fresh coconut for me to eat okay. im so touched. lols. i just love my daddy.

waha. im so happy now, i dunno why. and oh, its the fifteenth today. if ure' reading this. you noe what you shld do aye. lols. so there. takecare and restwell aye. much loves!!

ure still seem so delicious to me`

ohh. ive been in love with this song for quite some time. cause it think its really nice. lols. anw, mcfly; obviously. whee!!

mcfly; obviously.

recently ive been,
hopelessly reaching
out for this girl,
who's out of this world.
believe me.

she's got a boyfriend
he drives her round the bend
cos he's 23
he's in the marines
he'd kill me

for so many nights now
i find myself thinking about her now.

'cause obviously,
she's out of my league
but how can I win
she keeps draggin' me in and
i know i never will be good enough for her.

no, no
never will be good enough for her.

gotta escape now
get on a plane now. yeah
off to L.A and that's where i'll stay, for two years.
for cheating

i'll put it behind me(i'll put it behind me)
go to a place where she cant find me. yeah.

'cause obviously,
she's out of my league,
I'm wastin' my time
'cause she'll never be mine
i know i never will be good enough for her.
no, no
never will be good enough for her

she's outta my head
and i never know where i stand
cause i know im not good enough for her
he's good enough for her (for her, for her)

[[ `for so many nights now, i find myself thinking abt you*

im so so tired, but im so so so happy and satisfied with today's trng. i mean, today's trng was really great. ms martens was there, but mr bulb wasnt there. mr tan wasnt there too. only ms martens was there today. and i think i really enjoy her trng. so fun.

but whn she first reached delta, she seem to be quite angry with us. cause most of us were doing nothing, just talking and standing arnd. she didnt exactly scold us, but she somehow shown tht she wasnt really happy with what the lower secs are doing. and so, everyone started becoming more serious.

and i think ms martens was quite satisfied with our performance today. she cheered up quite abit after trng. she even volunteered to fetch the cage of balls and cones home. lols. tht was really very nice of her. i guess, we changed her mood and a little of her perspective towards us, through this whole two hours trng. hahs.

and im beginning to gain my confidence back after today's trng. its the same for brenda, carolyn, and i believe the rest of the team. i think we can play better without having too much pressure and the harsh scoldings from mr bulb. his scoldings are really scary and hurting. but after all, i understand tht its all for our own well-being. and i respect mr bulb for all tht. really.

so there. im in such a happy mood now. waha. shall stop here, and get a rest. take care aye. much loves!!

`ive got heaven on the inside of me ]]*

didnt blog ystd. sighs. ystd was a really bad day. maybe i shld say tht it was prolly one of the worst day of my life. sighs. the game and everything was crap and shit ystd. i got some hell scolding frm mr bulb. i havent heard him scold someone so fiercely or whatever like he did to me, all my life. i mean, the way he scolded me was total hell. i havent heard him scream at anyone so severly before. i swear. sighs.

dun really want to blog abt ystd. and if you want to noe the outcome of the game, im really sorry. we lost. the score was 2-0. sighs.

to the team and the seniors:
im really so sorry tht i screwed up the first half of the game. i was really confused abt my position, cause mr bulb was telling me to stay down, and the seniors asked me to stay in the center. and in the end, i got a hell of scolding frm mr bulb. i somewhat didnt stick to our match plan. im not blaming anyone. it was all my fault. all my fault. im so sorry. and seniors, i noe tht ure all very disappointed in us. we've been letting you all down agn and agn. im full of regrets and i feel really remoseful to even talk to you all agn. it was all my fault. im sorry.

im feeling so faithless;

omg. i just recieved a bad news frm nicolette. she told me tht dora will not be able to play on monday, and i guess the next few games. cause she caught chicken pox. what a time for her to catch tht. sighs. but luckily brenda trained for full-back this week while dora is away. phew.

alright. im tired, and im feeling like crap. dun have much mood to continue blogging. takecare and yeaps. loves!!

my post for today is below this, so scroll down to read aye.
anw, i really like this song. i dunno why, but i need to listen to it before i fall aslp everynight.

britney spears; everytime.

notice me, take my hand
why are we strangers when
our love is strong
why carry on without me

everytime i try to fly, i fall
without my wings, i feel so small
i guess need you, baby
and everytime i see you in my dreams
i see your face, it's haunting me
i guess i need you, baby

i make believe that you are here
it's the only way see clear
what have i done
you seem to move on easy

and everytime i try to fly, i fall
without my wings, i feel so small
i guess i need you, baby
and everytime i see you in my dreams
i see your face, you're haunting me
i guess i need you, baby

i may have made it rain
please forgive me
my weakness caused you pain
and this song's my sorry

at night i pray
that soon your face will fade away

and everytime i try to fly, i fall
without my wings, i feel so small
i guess i need you, baby
and everytime i see you in my dreams
i see your face, you're haunting me
i guess I need you, baby

aye. im so so tired. this has been a long long school week. monday to friday has finally passed. the weekends are here. finally. this has been a dreading week for me. sometimes whn i close my eyes, i just hope tht they'll be shut forever. i dread waking up every morning to see this world. especially whn the world seems to hate me. somewhat.

my whole bed is full of all my little creatures, mummy said tht i shld open a disney farm or donate some of them to the poor children. lols. but i dunno why, i cant seem to part with them. they're just so soft, so nice, so cute. and always there whn i need them everynight. anw, i think they're really taking up alot of space on my bed. i cant toss and turn properly whn i sleep at night. so funny.

anyhows, gehui wants me to help to promote their stall at youth park tomorrow. okay. there'll be a event/some small funfair held at youth park tomorrow, frm 11-8am. they'll be selling stuffs and food i guess, to raise funds for club rainbow. uhh. i hope i got tht right. so, pls drop by and have fun aye. yeaps.

and hockey girls, trng tomorrow is at delta. 7-8am. mr bulb wants us to be down by 630am. so, rest well and be there early okay. yupps.

my eyes are dry, and im getting tired. i shall take out my contacts now, and try to catch some sleep, before waking up agn later.

takecare and rest well aye. loves!!

falling in love with you was my greatest mistake;

oh no. my my. im getting so tired, as day and days passed. we're trng everyday. everyday okay. and its really really so so tiring, and stressful. i stress on this most stressful word, STRESS!! ohwell. im stressed over so many things. can't possibly name all, but the two major ones, is the c'div tourni and my sch work(the exams are coming!).

okayokay. im getting so stressed, tht i came up with some crazy and silliest ideas, i doubt anyone can ever think of, to de-stress. i shall not say them here. they're too stupid to be said. arh well.

i can't take it anymore. im really so tired, i dunno what to do. all i can think of is, sleep. and thts the worst thing i could have ever done now. im alr chasing time, but i still want to sleep. im such a piggy. sighs.

anw, went to wisma before trng today to pierce my ears. uhh. and its done now. so i have four earholes now. but i must hide them during school time, and whn assembly. so mafan de.

and im really pissed with sasha, samantha and the rest. how can they say tht i look like dunno what whn i just cut my fringe. i mean, there's no big deal abt tht. i still look the same. not like i became some monster right. i still look like charisa. and i love joanne and the rest okay. they say tht my hair is nice. lols. its so stupid and contridicting. some say tht its bad, but some say tht its nice. sighs.

alright. i shall just stop here. i need to catch some sleep before waking up and completing all my assignments. see. charisa is such a good girl. lols. no larh. i noe im crapping. so there.

especiall to all the c'div hockey girlos:
aye! i noe trngs are getting really tough and tiring. but we must not slack in our studies okay. and we shall continue trng hard and play well for all our coming games okay. our trngs and hardwork shall not be in vain. we'll do it de. we'll all study and work hard together. aye aye!! so there. you girlos mean so much to me, and i really really love you girls. take great care. sleep well.

much much of charisa's sweets loves!! muahx.

this shall be a really short post. just rushed home frm trng. trng today was frm 6-7 at delta. and now im really tired. okayokay. time is getting so little. im chasing time now. i dun have enough time to study alr. so im starting to stay up till late every night and start mugging. ive regreted enough, and im not gonna repeat all these agn. frm now onwards, im gonna study really hard and do well for the exams. i dun care what it takes. i'll just do my best. so i wont really be online tht often alr. so there. takecare people. much loves!!

although ive nvr liked shrek due to some reasons, i love this song.

counting crows.
accidentally in love.

so she said what's the problem baby
what's the problem i don't know
well maybe i'm in love
think about it every time
i think about it
can't stop thinking bout it

how much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause i can't ignore it if it's love
makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing bout love

come on, come on
turn a little faster
come on, come on
the world will follow after
come on, come on
cause everybody's after love

so i said i'm a snowball running
running down into the spring that's coming all this love
melting under blue skies
belting out sunlight
shimmering love

well baby i surrender
to the strawberry ice cream
never ever end of all this love
well I didn't mean to do it
but there's no escaping your love

these lines of lightning
mean we're never alone,
never alone, no, no

come on, come on
move a little closer
come on, come on
i want to hear you whisper
come on, come on
settle down inside my love

come on, come on
jump a little higher
come on, come on
if you feel a little lighter
come on, come on
we were once
upon a time in love

we're accidentally in love
accidentally in love

accidentally

i'm in love, i'm in love,
i'm in love, i'm in love,
i'm in love, i'm in love,
accidentally

come on, come on
spin a little tighter
some on, come on
and the world's a little brighter
come on, come on
just get yourself inside her

love...i'm in love

miss you like crazy

i used to call you my girl
i used to call you my friend
i used to call you the love
the love that i never had

when i think of you
i dont know what to do
when will i see you again?

i miss you like crazy
even more than words can say
i miss you like crazy
rvery minute of everyday
girl, i'm so down when you're love's not around
i miss you
miss you
miss you
i miss you like crazy

you're all that i want
you're all that i need
you're all that i need)
can't you see how i feel?
can't you see that my pain's so real?

when I think of you
i dont know what to do
when will I see you again?

i miss you like crazy

i dont have any mood to blog today.
the world hates me.
so there.

went for the IJ art fest at chijmes ystd. it was more or less boring. the weather was so hot. and i was practically melting. but smth nice, is to see all the IJ girls frm all the CHIJ schools come all together. i could have felt the warmth there. thts the nice part. and i found out smth tht i think is quite true. the CHIJ community made up quite a number of crazy and bitchy girls you see in town everyday. lols.

went to church today. and i found out tht im in part of the service for praise and worship every sunday for the second half of this year. i can feel the pressure coming to me, somehow. its actually quite a heavy responsibilty to do God's work and serve in his church.

smth bad abt myself i found out recently: i seem to get stressed over every other little things thts happening. didnt noe i was such a happening girl. lols

ohwell. i need smth terribly now. i need my POREPACK. but ive finished using all tht i have, and ive forgot to buy a new packet just now. someone pls get me one right now. dammit. all those hockey girls who attended the hockey camp shld noe tht i cant live without porepacks. i even use them during camps okay. i need my POREPACK right NOW!!

okayokay. i shall stop here, and look for my porepack. then i shall sleep for awhile, and catch the euro cup finals later. anyways, i hope portugal will win. so there. takecare. tata.

your love makes me sing*]]

whees. today's game was good. we won fajar. the score was 5-0. though we won this game, we could hve played much better. but i think we're improving frm where we were the previous game. and i think everyone is trying harder, and the communications are building up, bit by bit. and everything seems very encouraging. well done girls. way to go, girlos!

the game before us was crescent girls vs teckwhye. and smth really unexpected happened. teckwhye beat crescent. 1-0. i mean, i didnt expect this to happen. really. even though crescents beat us, ive still hoped tht they would win today, but they didnt. maybe they had underestimated them.

smth really important tht we shld learn frm this lesson. we shldn't be over-confident and complacent tht we'll win. sometimes, unexpected things happens. its really a great lesson to learn. okay. i shall not comment too much on their game larh.

anyhows, tomorrow and sunday is the celebrations for the 150yrs of CHIJ sprit. some art fest. and its all held at chimes. so cool right. im going. uhh. anyone gg, drop me a sms or gimme a call aye.

so there. thts abt it. i took a cab frm boonlay home okay. im tired. shall stop here. takecare ppl. much loves!!

everything is a choice`

hai. trng today was really crap. i didnt noe what exactly i was doing. all i felt was tired and irritated. i was pmsing the whole damn day, even during lessons. and mr bulb scolded the hell out of me. sometimes it wasnt my fault, but he still had to scold me. and i felt damn bad. sighs.

and whn i reached home, i found out smth tht i didnt want to have at this time.

-

period/+

grr. so annoying. okayokay. i need to rest well tonight. ive got a game tmr. and im feeling so tired. whatsoevershit. anyways, i shall not blog too much here alr. i need to continue to do my art homework. its due tmr, but im only starting now. sighs.

tomorrow's game. theresian vr fajar. NTU. 4.30pm. uhh.

so there. takecare girlos. restwell. much loves!!

`theworldhatesme